Polaroid

what do you want most

"What do you want the most in this entire universe? What do you desire to the end of this earth?"

"I want to be okay with my existence. I want to stop hating myself, I want to stop wanting to die. But I can't. It's like an addiction that grabs hold of you and never let's go. It's like plummeting down an infinite pit with every single person you've ever looked up to or ever loved, mocking and laughing at you. It's like seeing the face of pain run across someone's face faster than you can say sorry, why can't I be happy?"