His blue eyes: Fifty Shades

~42~

It was several months before when I was only one month pregnant. I didn't know then. I just thought I had the stomach virus when I kept getting sick in the morning.

Karol advise me to take a pregnancy test and after awhile in denial, I finally took it. It made sense after awhile when I found out I was pregnant when I haven't had my monthly cycle. But I always ignored that fact... well not always since this is my first baby.

I began thinking about Niall. He done wrong, and I am very much upset at him despite that he was drunk. I became suspicious when I noticed he only drank two bottles of beer and he became drunken and 'mad'. But I ignored that fact because I could just be paranoid.

The second month of pregnancy came by fast, at the same time we were still getting settled into our new home. I also gotten weird cravings for different tastes. Like once I wanted sushi, and I hate sushi. So when I actually ate it, it made me gag and I rejected it. I don't know what I was thinking.

After a few more weeks, we bought some baby supplies. I knew it was going to be a girl, but I didn't let anyone know.

After a few number of days, we got a new home phone. Once we got it hooked up, our phone has been ringing none stop. It was mostly telemarketer, some of friends and family, and also numbers that were unknown.

My cell phone has also been ringing none stop, with numbers I haven't even recognized. I ignored most of them. Except for one, and it was some man with an accent but I hung up on him. I didn't really recognize the voice either.

So now it's back to the present, and I am making way through the halls to go answer the door.

I'm pretty positive it's Niall, and I think I know how he find me besides using his resources. He probably tracked me down by my phone when I answered that one single call. Karol was still on her ass watching tv, so that definitely left me no choice but to answer the door myself.

And my assumption was right. Niall was at my doorstep.

"Hey babe." Niall gave a small smile. He looked sad, and it looks like he lost a few pounds. I gulped before finally greeting him.

"Niall." I was in brutal shock even though I should've predicted it. Niall walked up to me and hugged me. His hug was tight and comforting. He loosened up and backed away.

"I'm sorry. I don't remember anything, but I promise never to do it again." Niall said with sincerity. I didn't know if I wanted to believe him, but if he didn't remember then I guess I shouldn't be so harsh on him.

I should let him in but what if he finds out about Anita. I should let him know he is a father but it is not a good time. When is anything ever a good time?

"Can I come in?" Niall popped the question I was mentally avoiding. I sighed. I don't have an excuse for him to not come in. I walked away allowing him in, and Niall following.

"Niall!" Karol finally got up and pulled Niall into a loose awkward hug. "How have you been?" I could see that Karol was tensing up and gritting her teeth.

"I'm better now." Niall grinned, looking my way.

"You're a selfish asshole." Karol spit out at him. Niall opened his mouth in shock, unable to have any comeback.

"Karol." I hissed. Karol shrugged. She always speaks her mind especially to a man. She has trust issues with guys, and always thinks that they're all the same and after the same. I just think she is afraid of falling in love, maybe that's why she just has flings. She runs away from her heart.

"It's the truth. Karol snapped her fingers in z formation. Karol looked Niall straight in the eyes.

"You fucking raped her dumb fuck. You call that loving her? You probably don't even know what love is." Karol was crawling into Niall's mind. Niall backed up, since as Karol was taking she was all up him.

"I what-" Niall gasped. He turned to me and I saw his eyes rim with water. I looked down at my bare feet. I can't stand to see Niall crying.

"Babe, I'm sorry. I never meant to. I don't ever want to." Niall walked to me and embraced me. He kissed my head and everything was quiet.

That only lasted two minutes when Anita started crying. Shit. She woke up.

Niall let go of me with an confusing look. I gulped and turned around walking to the baby room. I took Anita out of the crib and held her, rocking her in my arms.

"Shh." I hushed Anita. I heard footsteps and turned to see Niall in the door way. He looked so lost.

He looked down at his hands and began to do some counting as he was mumbling to himself.

"It took me 9 months to find you." Niall came to realization. He walked toward me to view the baby. Anita stopped her cries and was looking at the Blondie that stood in front of her.

"My blue eyes." Niall grinned. He kissed her on the forehead before taking her from my hold.

"I'm a father?" Niall's eyes brightened.

"No." I joked. But his smile faded and I realized that I shouldn't joke about that.

"Just kidding." I lightly laughed. Niall didn't find it funny. "Yeah you're the father." I chewed on my bottom lip.

"What's her name?" Niall asked, as he played with the baby's fingers.

"Anita May Horan." I bit my lip. I know I chose his last name, only because part of me hoped he would come back for me. Niall grinned and kissed me.

"Beautiful name for a beautiful little girl." Niall kissed me again.

"I have to change her diaper." I told Niall, taking Anita back in my hold.

Niall nodded and left the room. I

smiled to myself. Maybe having Niall as company and support won't be so bad. Besides, I think we all need somebody to love.

I say that and I'm changing a shitty diaper. Ew.

After I'm finished changing it, I walk out holding Anita still. It seems that Karol and Niall are finally getting along, or so I thought. She was just interrogating him with questions of all sorts. When I walked in the last question slash statement slash command she asked Niall was,:

"Tell me about your family."