it was one month later and it wasn't the same with the boys. they were distanced and when they really needed me it was for the band, nothing more. I must say my skin still freezes with anxiousness when I have to face them. Rosemary encourages me not be - and I quote - a pussy around them and tell them how it is but I can't help but crumble every moment I see this look Calum gives me.
I've known him since I was eight. he was my best friend.
we could battle zombies and evil villains as ninja turtles, we promised to stay together in this chaotic world till the end of time. now I can't gaze upon him once without hearing his complicated speech as a child reminding me of everything we had.
I know it sounds like we were in some relationship but Calum has been my best friend for such awhile. yet, it feels wrong with the other boys too. Luke is quiet and although he always tends to be it's more than usual. Ashton can't even gape at me without looking away the swiftest.
the band was breaking apart and here I am laying the hood of my car with her, I must say it wasn't as bad as I may make it to sound. Rosemary was also my friend, I adore her and crave affection and attention from her.
vice versa.
"what are you thinking about?" She whispered. there was no one there but she still felt the need to make sure it was only between me and her.
"A lot." I admitted.
"like what?" Rosemary wanted an answer I could tell from the determination in her voice.
"why when we're a kid we dreamed so big and now we just belittle under the words of saying you can never amount to that?" I looked down to her, she stayed expressionless and that bothered me because I wanted to sense a preview to her statement.
"society I think is too blame, you don't realize their presences until you mature. then you get the rules of the do's and don't's."
"like do not become a princess and do be aware of your weight, you can't get too fat. you get what I mean?" I nodded this time not paying attention to her face this time.
but I felt her shift from her spot because of the way she moved the blankets and the metal bend under our bodies. Rosemary was closer and brought her fingers to keep my eyes locked on hers. "Michael listen to me carefully." I didn't say anything as she stared at my lips.
"don't let anyone tell you can't do anything you dream of. you are art and no one should be allowed to interact with it unless you yourself take done the that sign says, 'do not touch the masterpieces' you got me?" again I desired to listen to the mumbles of my conscious telling me to kiss her.
I was interlocked with the galaxies of her eyes but felt only like a star within all of her constellations. I wondered did she wanted the same thing by the way her fingers rubbed against my mouth. I wish we could kiss like real people do.
Rosemary did it again however this time it was now a peck on my neck to my chest and my nose. my skin tingled, my heart thumped and she knew the effects I was getting.
she continued this time longer letting her lips linger onto my jaw, my eyes were closed remembering my cravings of actions like this. It was passionate and truly magical. But when it finally happened, her lips falling onto mine, Rosemary made me feel like a planet with six moons and raging hurricanes of frozen ice and fire in her galaxy.
she seemed to enjoy it more when her legs straddled my waist causing my hands to hold on tighter to the frame of her face. my mind was screaming for more and so were my fingers letting it drag through her hair.
Rosie hummed with admiration when I fulfilled this. our unimaginable and indescribable moment felt like it lasted for an eternity but it was a minute after she stopped resting her forehead against mine eyes shut. "what was that for?" I managed to ask.
"It was for motivation." she murmured. I caressed my thumb over her mouth still as Rosie now laid on my stomach her head by my heart. I was bewildered and completely, utterly happy.
"why is you're heart still beating so fast?" she questioned and I remember smiling.
"because like you said you're my soulmate and I think I'm yours too. my heart is still beating rapidly because I fucking have you."
okay this is a really short chapter but I think it is an important one too so yeah, bUT THEY FUCKING KISSED I GET TOO EXCITED ABOUT CUTE SHIT THEY DO!
however anyways if you can't tell I'm writing a lot but you know I think I'll just update when I want to for this story because last time I had a schedule for a story I ended up hating to write it because it was a priority and I want it to be fun for me and you as the reader to get nice chapters with all my effort to make them sound less shitty. if that makes sense? but yeah not a lot of you even read this besides close mutuals which sorta sucks but that's okay!
as long as I am writing. I'm ranting now and this is a long author's note. bUT OH OH BTW MY NAME IS AALIYAH ( UH-LEE-YA) AND I THOUGHT YOU SHOULD KNOW AND I SHOULD NOT BE TYPING IN CAPS OKay bye ily guys and I hope you are enjoying the story! :-)
