"Are you home?" I hear a voice call from the first floor. Quickly running down the steps, I see Vic peeking his head through the front door to my flat. “It was unlocked so I.. you know." I rolled my eyes and walked over to him. “I’ve missed you" I say as I hug him tightly.
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He had been touring with his band Pierce The Veil for 3 months now. Vic was the closest thing to family I had. Even though we weren’t actually related, he was the only one who cared.
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"How have you been?" he asks as he sits down on the couch across from me. “Uhh.. I’ve been okay." I say as I twist my shirt sleeves around my fingers. “How have you been?" I ask him in return with a smile on my face.
"Great! Touring is fantastic. It amazes me to know that the music the band and I play saves people’s lives." I soon catch myself fumbling with my sleeve again. “Yeah, I’m sure that’s an unexplainable feeling" I say as I get up and head towards the kitchen.
Vic following not too far behind, sits down at the table behind me.
"You okay?"
“Yes. I’m fine." Smiling still, I grab us each a water from the fridge and sit down beside him.
“How are the guys" I ask before taking a sip of water.
“They’re alright. Jaime was excited to go home to his girlfriend, Tony couldn’t wait to get home to his pet turtle, and Mike just wanted to go home to his bottle of Jack."
"Typical" I mutter causing him to laugh. “What about you? What were you excited to get home to?" I ask, not sure of what I wanted his answer to be.
"I’m not exactly sure. I’ve been very excited to see you. I know you don’t have many people so.." stopping himself from saying more he took a sip of his water.
"Are you staying with Mike tonight? Or do you want to stay here? You can have my bed and I’ll sleep on the couch."
"I’ll stay. We can watch movies. I’ll order a pizza!" He offered as if we were little kids again. Nodding in agreement he pulled out his phone and called in to order one.
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"I’m going to change into pajamas. Here’s some money for the pizza" I say as I hand him a 20. Walking up the stairs towards my room, I feel sadness washing over me.
There’s a lot Vic doesn’t know since he’s been gone for 3 months.
Quickly throwing on my scooby-doo bottoms and plain grey tanktop I hurry back down stairs to find Vic with a box of pizza that was almost bigger than him. Laughing uncontrollably, I take it from him and walk back towards the kitchen.
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"Mm, it’s been a long time since I’ve had pizza" I confess as Vic’s eyes trail off to something else.
“why didn’t you tell me?" his eyes beginning to widen and pain straining in his voice. his eyes focused on the deep cuts and old scars on my wrist.
"You’ve been gone for 3 months Vic! You’re the only person I have. While you were gone I was so alone! I wanted out of this world. Out of this lifetime. I hate the girl I see in the mirror. I hate everything. I’m me and that’s not good enough! I will never be someone’s first choice. I will never be someone’s first love. I will never be anything. I feel dead, I am dead on the inside. I fuck up everything. There’s nothing special or beautiful about me. I’m just me and that will never change."
Bursting into tears, I run to the bathroom and lock the door.
"hey, please open the door"
Unlocking it, I move back towards the shower facing away from him.
"Please look at me" he pleads. Turning around I see the tears in the corner of his eyes. Nothing hurt me more than that. Nothing. “Vic…" I began as my voice trailed off.
"You could have called me, I would have talked to you."
"I didn’t want to ruin your tour. I knew you’d be having so much fun."
"You don’t understand . I care about you! You’re part of my life now whether you like it or not! If I’d wake up one day and find out that you’re gone, I wouldn’t be the same ever again. It’d be like a part of me disappeared. You’re more beautiful than you think and you’re so much better than you portray yourself to be. Don’t feel so low. It will get better if you allow it to. If you let me help you, if you talk to me. I can restore your happiness. I can try my best to put a smile back on your pretty little face. I can make you feel love again."
His hands were holding either side of my face now, thumbs caressing my cheeks. Wiping the tears off of my face, he grabbed my hand and led me out of the bathroom. Standing in the hallway now, he put his hands back on either side of my face. “I love you." he said as he stared directly into my eyes.
"I love you too" I said before pressing my lips against his. I grabbed his hand and pulled him towards my bedroom. Once there We walked over to the bed together and sat down next to one another.
"Don’t ever leave me. Promise me you’ll never leave me."
"I promise."
And with that, our lips were pressed together once again. More passionate now than before, I lock my fingers in his hair.
As we remove our clothes, we keep eye contact with one another. Soon his body is against mine, causing goosebumps to erupt all over my body.
Lining himself up to my entrance, he looks up at me, almost as if he was asking for permission. Nodding, he gently enters me. My whimpers of pain soon became light moans of pleasure.
Our breathing in unison now and the moans getting louder, I could tell we were both reaching climax.
With one final thrust, we both came.
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After we got dressed we went back to the living room to watch movies and finish our pizza from before.
"I won’t ever leave you." he said before we both drifted off to sleep.
