I knock twice on Connors door. I wait 10 seconds and knock again. Suddenly a bright warm face opens the door and smiles at me.
"Hey Tyler! Come on in!" He steps aside and I walk past him into his new apartment. I hear the door close behind me.
"So, how are you?" I turn to face him.
" I'm good thanks, a little tired."
"Oh cool, well you can take a nap on my couch if you want."
"No thank you but thanks. Anyways, shouldn't you start the video soon?"
"Um...yeah, sorry I'm just really nervous"
"No it's, fine no pressure. You go when your ready, I remember how nervous I was when I was coming out." by this time we had made our way to the couch and sat down.
"Yeah.." his eyes scatter around the room until they reach the floor and stay. I place my hand on his back trying to comfort him.
"Hey, it's going to be alright. They love you now, they will love you after. When I did it I thought everyone would hate me or wouldn't except me. Of course I got a little hate but the rest of them still wanted to continue the journey. I'm sure your fans will want to go with you too. You just need to be honest with them." by this time I had pulled Connor's chin so he was looking at me. He looks into my eyes and I look deep into his. I see fear, joy and love. My mother always told me that someones features put together makes the eye, each little part of the pupil represents a feeling. Blue usually stands for shyness, but outgoing on the inside, and fragile. Brown usually means tough, but genital on the inside, and usually happy. Green means artistic, silly but sometimes sad when their alone. Connor's...Connor's were different they were a mixture between blue and green, which meant he was shy, fragile sad artistic and silly. His eyes scan my face until he starts moving closer, I follow. Inches between each others faces and I cough.
"We should probably set up for the video..." he pulls back and looks down.
"Yeah...I'll go get the lights. Be right back." He stands up and walks into a different room.
What just happened.....did we try to kiss.....again?
No, we didn't he was just leaning back and slightly scooted closer to me?
What am I kidding of course we tried to kiss!
Why wouldn't I want to kiss those nice plump lips, they fit nicely into mine like there made to.
What am I thinking! Again, Tyler you have a boyfriend and you don't like Connor!
He walks back into the room carrying a big circle light and a few other small ones. I stand up and walk over to him to help out. I grab the two smaller ones and place them by the couch, he follows.
"I'm going to go grab the camera