What Are You Hiding? (Tofuudiger Fanfiction)

Chapter 5

"I've come to visit Joe Griffin."

"Sorry, honey, only his family is allowed to see him at this moment."

"Please, you don't understand. I'm his boyfriend and his best friend. I basically am his family. You've got to make an exception. I'm worried sick, please."

"Rules are rules. You can visit him later this week. He doesn't have time for this business right now. You have to leave now please. I've got other patients and their worried families to tend to now, if you'll excuse me."

"Fine," I say firmly as I march to the waiting area.

I sit there for minutes and hours, feeling great pain in my chest. The pain is enhanced when I think about how angry I am at the woman at the desk. I try my hardest to keep tears from falling out of my eyes. Joe. My precious boyfriend, Joe. I still can't believe that he uses drugs. He seems so innocent and pure. How can he do such a thing? I stop my thoughts from turning to negative and start to think positively. At least I will see Joe sometime soon. I would hug him and kiss him and show him how much I love and support him. I will be there by his side at all times when he is recovering. I will promise him that I will never leave him. The thoughts that run through my brain strengthen my heart. I feel like a heartened man now. Determination surges through my veins and passion fills my lungs. There is no other situation where I would feel this way towards someone than my beloved Joe.

Later when I get home, I get out my fancy notebook with fancy paper. It was an anniversary gift from Joe.

When he gave it to me he said, "You have such a great mind. Your thoughts are beautiful, yet dark and your words are free, yet intelligent. I want you to express your word in this. I want this very notebook to be dedicated to what your flourishing mind thinks. Please, if you use this, I will be a level happier. Promise me you'll write in this?"

"Yes," I said, with a loss of words. "Of course I will, Joe. I promise with all my heart and soul."

I take the notebook and sit on my desk in my bedroom and reach for a soft black gel pen that I use to draw portraits with. I write:

Dearest beautiful Joe,

   You have no idea how much I've missed being with you these past days. My life has been empty without you there beside me, making me smile and making me laugh and making me act like my true self. I want to be with you forever so I will always be by your side. My support and love for you will never die and everyday that spark of affection will flourish with each breath we take together. I don't care that I can't physically be with you because I will always be with you spiritually. My spirit will always be grazing through your beating heart, touching every part of you. Never forget that I am here. Never forget that I am your boyfriend.

               With Love, Zack

As I close up the letter, a tear rolls down my cheek and lands on the paper, slightly smudging a few words. I gingerly tear the letter out of the notebook, careful not to rip any sentences. I gently fold the paper and insert it inside an envelop. Looking at the neatly packaged letter, I am itching to give Joe the letter now. I look at the time and it is 11:25 right now. I put on my coat, grab my car keys, enter the chilly frosted air, and enter my car. I turn on the engine and drive off to the hospital. I turn on the radio and Trees by Twenty One Pilots starts to play (A/N: Calling all Twenty One Pilots fans! Too bad Trees doesn't actually come on the radio). I sing along to the lyrics and feel numbness as I hear the beautiful lyrics.

I know where you stand silent in the trees
And that's where I am silent in the trees.
Why won't you speak where I happen to be?
Silent in the trees, standing cowardly.
I can feel your breath, I can feel my death.
I want to know you.
I want to see.
I want to say hello.

The song soon comes to an end and I am left breathless. I regain oxygen and exhale deeply. It feels as if the song cleansed the air and the breaths I am taking are new, refreshed, pure. I finally pull up to the bright white lights of the hospital. The time reads 11:40. I walk confidently into the hospital to see that the woman at the desk is the same one from earlier today.

"You again? Can't you just give us a break and just follow the rules?"

"I've come to visit my best friend, boyfriend, and family member. His name is Joe Griffin and I demand to see him this instance."