What Are You Hiding? (Tofuudiger Fanfiction)

Chapter 15

Saturday is a great day. I sit on my couch listening to music while reading. Suddenly I hear the doorbell ring. I open the door and Joe is in front of me with a serious expression.

"Hey Zack," he says on the verge of tears.

"Hey Joe. Is anything wrong?" I ask.

"Can I come in?"

I let him in and lead him to the couch.

"Zack," Joe begins. "I think we should break up."

I stop breathing for a moment. The room goes dead silent for what seems like hours. I try to hold back my tears and wonder what I did wrong.

"Ok," I say shakily. "If that's what you want. Then fine."

"Zack, I..." Joe begins.

"Why? Why are you breaking up with me? Do you not love me anymore? What did I do wrong?" I interrupt him.

"I'm sorry, Zack," Joe says. "I can't tell you why. I'm so sorry."

He gets up and leaves and I am left on my couch. He gently closes the door and the whole room is filled with an endless silence. I don't think I've ever been so upset and confused in my life. I thought we were perfect. I wanted to grow old with him. My dreams are gone.

Saturday is no longer a great day.

I remember that I left some belongings at Joe's house. My sweater, my headphones, my letters, my love. I decide to not appear sour so I go to his house to retrieve them in a calm matter. I walk to Joe's house and see an unfamiliar car parked in his driveway. It was a glossy light blue color with ornaments hanging from the mirrors. This seems unusual. I walk up to Joe's door, the same door the day I saved him, and knocked. Joe opens the door, but not alone. There's a girl at his side.

"Oh, uh, hey Zack," Joe says nervously.

"Uh who's this?" I ask.

"I'm Sydney, Joe's girlfriend," the girl says.

"Uh, nice to meet you. It seems I came at the wrong time. I'll come some other time," I say looking down.

"Wait Zack..." Joe says as I turn and walk back home.

I don't answer. I just walk away, hurt from what he's done. Has he been bisexual the whole time instead of gay? Was I not enough for him? Was I the reason he lost interest for boys? Tears start pooling in my eyes but I wipe them away quickly. As I arrive home, I get into my car and start driving. Far.

I drive to Joe and I's favorite spot. A drive-in scenic view. It was on a small rocky cliff with a large lake below. In the distance, there's a meadow with trees and tall grass, and tall mountains behind it all. The sun is setting and disappearing behind the mountains, the way Joe likes it. I climb onto the rail separating me from the scenery and just sit and feel the breeze on my face.

Maybe it will be better if I just jump...