Into my Insanity

It will be okay

Those words up there......
I never thought I'd hear them again.

I feel that life will get better now that I have someone to help me, but I can only imagine that something will go wrong.
It always does.
I don't dare tell a soul about the true problems I'm having with my mentality. I might actually have briefly told that one person, but he will truly never know the content of this madness that I conceal. It slips out from time to time, even around him I would think, but at the end I never remember what happens in the time I become that other entity. He tells me it will be okay and that he loves me with his heart and soul, but if this..happening continues, I don't know how dangerous I will become or how it will effect him. In all honesty I'm scared to death. He is the air I breathe but the moment I snap, he will become void of that purpose because I will no longer be myself. I will be Alice.