in front of a microphone

Five

Charlie ended up coming to over sooner than I expected last night so we basically just chilled and watched tv. It was really awkward around Charlie because I basically told him I liked him. I was getting really sleepy and he Charlie had already fallen asleep beside me so I decided to turn the tv off and go to bed too since we would have a long ride today since it was already 5am and we have to leave at 10am.

"goodnight mama I love you I promise I won't give up on us"

As I drifted off to sleep I feel Charlie pull me closer to his side and hold me around my waste.

"Goodnight i know your not awake but I love you I'm just to shy to tell you"

My lips moved to the words but they just wouldn't come out. I wanted to tell him I loved him but I couldn't say it, like I was trying to hold back maybe for a different time.

________________________________

We woke up at 9 and started taking our bags out. Charlie didn't talk to me at all. When we finally finish it was about 9:45 so I decided to talk to my mom to just say my goodbyes. I walked into my living room and looked at all the picture my papa kept of her. I looked at each one and my dad walked in and it was just that moment in time I really needed a hug. I run into my dads arms, tears rushing down my face. "Shhh" he whispered over and over again.

"I miss her dad, I think about her so much"

"She's in our hearts. Do you think she would want you crying about this. You promised you'd stay strong for her, stay strong for her"

"Everything bad happens to me, I wish I could tel you the stories about all the bad stuff that's happened but no one knows"

"Does he know"

"Who"

"Your boyfriend"

"He's not my boyfriend but yeah he knows"

"Well whenever you don't have the ability to tell me, tell him. I hope he's there for you when I can't be"

"Me too"

"Listen I just wanna make sure you okay. Meaning you know n- no um no"

"No what"

"No sexual activity without you know protection"

"DAD OMG he's not interested in me that kind of way I'm just a friend to him"

"Well guys change when it comes to things like that you know"

"Miss it's time to go"
I turned around and realized Charlie and the limo driver were standing there.

I gave my dad a hug and told him I would call him every night.

Once we got into the taxi, I sat down next to Charlie. He turned and looked at me so I looked down. About 10 minutes into the ride I don't know why but I felt like crying so I asked the driver to pull over by McDonald's. I walked into McDonald's and no one was in there but maybe 2 older people. I walked to the bathroom and looked in the mirror as tears started flowing down my face. I wiped them away and quickly went to the bathroom. Before I walked out I looked in the mirror one more time, it was noticeable that I was crying but hopefully no one would notice. As I walked out of McDonalds the driver was standing there to open the door for me.

"You don't have to do that I've got it I'm not that special"

"Yes ma'am if you insist"

I sat down in the seat and shut the door as the driver shuts his door and starts the limo.

"Hey look at me, have you been crying"

"No I'm good I just really hurt my finger from um you know"

"No you didn't, why are you crying is it me"

I looked down at my hands and back at Charlie.

"No I'm fine"

"No your not, I've seen those pictures on Instagram when people say "I'm fine" is a girls biggest lie don't act like I don't stalk people"

I giggled a little at Charlie's joke and looked up at him.

"I'm fine really"

I look out the window and finally see the airport. Guards walk us in the airport which really scared me because of all the screaming people. Charlie took my hair and kissed it while pulling me close to him.

"shh, don't be scared i won't let anything happen to you"

Once we made it to gate B and dropped off out bags we got on the plan within 10 minutes and left as soon as possible.

________________________________
8 hours later
Me and Charlie were really tired so we decided to just go straight to bed once we got to the hotel. Charlie went to his room without saying a words and slammed his door. I'm not really sure what his problem is but I'm done worrying about it. I walked to my room and put all my bags down. I set up my outfit tomorrow which was just light washed ripped skinny jeans, a white shirt, white vans. After about 3 hours of on my phone and watching YouTube videos I decided to walk down to the hotel Starbucks. I walked over to Charlie's door and knocked on it 3 times. He opened the door and looked at me then rolled his eyes.

"Do you wanna go to the hotels Starbucks to you know get coffee" I asks him.

"Ah fine"

"Okay let's go"

We walked down the hallway and got into the elevator followed by Charlie and then a random about my age girl came into the elevator. Charlie nudged my shoulder them go out his phone and started typing. My phone went off so I looked down at it and it was a text from Charlie.

She's hot do you think I should as her to come to my room tonight?

I read it 2 more times and couldn't believe he really just said that. Once the girl got off on the 6th floor I got off too.

"Tori where the hell are you going"

I walked over to the stairs and started running up them until I got to the highest floor which was the 10th floor aka my floor. I waked quickly down the hall but sadly Charlie caught up to me. I took out my room card and slid it in the slot as if opened I waked into my room followed by Charlie who shut the door behind him.

"What the fuck is wrong with you why are you running from me"

"You tell me"

"I can't tell you something I don't know"

"Charlie I confessed my love towards you and you go off and ask me if you should ask this girl to come over and have sex with you"

"You obviously don't like me you like that Kody guy, when Kody left you house I was waiting at your door and he said you guys were serious and that you guys just "did it" his words not mine"

"That's not true at all Charlie you've showed me how to except life the way it is because everything happens for a reason. I like you but if it's not that way for you then I understand. I think you should leave"

I open the door and Charlie shuts it slamming me against the door and kissed me down my neck.

"Jump" he says.