When Two Skateboards Crash

However, they are both love. Those that don't survive is still love. Those that don't survive isn't surviving for their love. They're letting their love go for the sake of their love to survive unlike they didn't.

I knew then that I had to do the same. I had to let go Octavian for his love to still stand and love later on. To cherish another. To help another one's love survive. With that, I let out the words I held back. And let them go with Octavian.

"I love you." Then I let go of everything. My tears, my breath, my feelings and my love.

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Chapter 19

Arielle POV

As I went into the surgery room, I wondered if I was going to make it or not. I didn't have a personal opinion on this. I didn't what was good or bad. All I knew was that I did the right thing before I came in.

However, I knew I was going to miss my parents whether I go out of this surgery room alive or not. Even if I come out alive, they're not going to be the same. They will be over protective, always fussing over me and I will always feel bad for burdening them.

I knew I didn't say goodbye but I didn't want to. I don't think there's a point in goodbyes. It only adds more sadness, no deduction at all.

As an oxygen mask was put on and I was about to be put into sleep, I went through my memories with Octavian. Us, meeting when we crashed, the event with the marker, my coma and our confessions.

One tear escaped my eyes. I was glad it wasn't a waterfall that could freak out my heart. It was an adventurous relationship, my first and my last. I couldn't believe that I would die before Octavian and I did it.

This didn't mean, though, that I was over Octavian. I still love him deeply in my heart and I will selfishly continue to love him. With that thought in mind, I fell into sleep.

I love you.