WEST COAST

3: All Eyes On You

BRIA'S POV

I sat at my desk in my bedroom with baby pink painted walls. Blank college applications were in front of me along with an energy drink. I was about to just pass out of tiredness. I was up almost all night the night before trying to do just this, get these things filled out. For some reason I just wasn't able to get it done. I mean yeah I wanted to get into one of these colleges and study law. Yes I had amazing grades and yes it is what my parents and I had always talked about. But as it began to get closer and closer, I started to kind of get cold feet I guess. 

There was this perfect person that everybody thought of me as, that everybody expected me to be. I mean I loved school I really do, it's just that sometimes I wish that everybody would stop trying to plan out my life for me. Specifically my parents. I didn't want to let them down. I wanted to make them happy, and what they wanted was for me to go to Yale and become a lawyer. It all made sense in my mind, but I wasn't so sure if it still made sense in my heart. 

I thought about my friends for a minute. Michelle's life was so crazy and so exciting. I mean of course I scold her all the time for sleeping with randoms and partying too much, but her life was just so fun. Priscilla had the perfect life, the perfect boyfriend, everybody loved her and she knew how to have fun. Then Leila was just so interesting and artistic. Then there was me, and I just lacked spice. I wanted to be exciting too. 

My parents didn't want me to have a boyfriend until I was squared away in college. Everybody just thought that I was a perfect class virgin. I thought about Florida for a second and got a knot in my chest. 

"How are those coming?" I turned around and seen my 13 year old sister Brittany walking into my room. 

I covered up the blank applications with my arm. 

"They are going good Brittany." I said, smiling at her. 

"Good. I hope that when I am a senior in high school that I can have good grades and be the top of my class and get into good colleges too." She said. 

"Brittany you will, you are really good at school." I said. 

"Well I am going to miss you when you go away for school, but you will visit." Brittany said. 

I smiled and found myself in thought again. I would technically have to leave for school in August if I got in. That was in 6 months. I didn't think that I was ready to leave my home, my friends, and my family in 6 months. 

"Good luck." Brittany said.

"Thanks." I called, watching her leave my room. 

I looked back down at the empty sheets of paper and put them underneath a science book. I just couldn't do this right now. I wanted to leave the house right now to be honest, I was too stressed out. 

I called Priscilla and she didn't answer the phone. 

I called Leila's number next. It rang only once before she answered. 

"Hello?" She asked. 

"Hey do you wanna hang out? Go to the mall maybe?" I asked. 

"I wish... sorry I have to work." She said. 

"Oh okay." I said, dissapointed. Leila was always the one who gave good advice. 

"Did you try Priscilla?" She asked. 

"Yeah. She didn't answer." I said. 

"Yeah she is kinda stressed right now." She said. 

"About what? She has a perfect life." I said.