I can't hear a thing you say...

chapter 7= Jack

I lie awake as I feel Alex sleeping next to me. I look at him, and really take his features in. his hair is light brown, down to almost his shoulders with a fringe. his eyes are a kind of a hazel color. he looks so peaceful sleeping. he had a faint smile on his face aswell. after a while I fell into a light sleep on Alex's chest. I woke up to Alex shaking me, I looked up at him and smiled a little. he did the same.I got up and went downstairs, Alex following behind me.I sat on the couch and Alex sat next to me turning the tv on and putting captions so I could watch/ read too. I felt my phone vibrate and I took it out and saw I had 12 messages, I looked at the messages.......I wish I hadn't. I threw my phone against the wall and put my knees to my chest and put my hands in my hair, clenching it. Alex immediately engulfed me into a hug. my breathing started to falter and my chest started to hurt and it felt like the walls were closing in on me. I started to feel dizzy so I slide of the couch on my knees with my hands on each side, holding me up. ' what's wrong?' Alex signed to me. ' I can't breath' I signed back shakily. Alex took my hands and I squeezed them as hard as I could. after 10 minutes my breathing started to go back to normal and my head started to clear up. I sat back so my back was against the base of the couch. ' what caused this?' Alex signed to me. ' the hate' I signed back. Alex just engulfed me into a hug. Alex let go and signed to me. ' how come you don't have hearing aids?' . ' my parents don't have enough money' I signed back. Alex looked like he was in deep thought. ' how about we have a fund raiser at school to see how much money we can get and see if it's enough' he signed to me. ' are you sure it will work?' I signed back. ' I'm sure it will work' he signed to me. we smiled. and just like that, we started planning the, fund raiser.