Partners Or Lovers?

On my mind

Olivia's POV
Brad told me to wear something nice tonight. So I decided to wear my black dress that clings to my hips. It's a little short, but not that short. I wear a pair of low cut, heeled, black ankle boots. I am surprisingly really excited for our date!
I curl my hair and do my makeup. I look at my phone and see that Brad is calling.
"Hey liv, I'm so sorry, I'm a bit pre occupied at the moment" he says panting. "I can't go out tonight sorry" he hangs up.

Brads POV
I hang up the phone and throw it on the the bedside table.
I look down at the blonde that lies beneath me.
"Round two?"

Olivia's POV
Oh my god! He has just stud me up! I was so excited as well! I can't believe this! I thought Brad was a decent guy, but clearly not! I don't really know what to do with myself.
Ring ring...ring ring....
I call the only person that has never hurt me.
"Liv? I thought you were going on a date with Brad!" He says, with that jealous tone of his.

Elliot's POV
"I was, but he stud me up" she says. It sounds like she has been crying, by the sound of her voice.
"Liv are you okay?" I ask
"No" she replies. I can picture her crying, and it's breaking my heart. It pains me to see and hear her this way.
"Do you want me to come over?" I ask
"Yes please" she replies.

When I arrive at her apartment I knock on the door, it opens almost instantly.
She is in a dress that shows of her natural assists. Her make up is smudged, but she still looks so beautiful.
I walk in, not saying a word. I throw my arms around her waist and pull her into a hug. I love this feeling. I have missed this feeling. I have craved this feeling. The feeling of us both holding each other tightly. Closely. It's just so perfect. I wouldn't change it for anything.
She cries onto my shoulder. I don't even worry about the mascara stain it will leave.
Liv has abandonment issues. She believes that she isn't good enough for anyone. Especially after what happened.
"Liv, are you okay" I ask
"Yeah I'm fine. What am I even crying for?! I'm so pathetic!" She says
"Olivia Marie Benson! You are not pathetic!" I say. "Take it back!" I continue in a kiddy voice, as I attempt to cheat her up.
"No! I don't think I will!" She replies, mocking my kiddy voice
"Take...it...back!" I say
"Or what?" She mocks.
"Or...or...i will....tickle youu!!!" I say grabbing her waist and tickling her.
"No... Stop okay okay... I take it back!" She says laughing.
"Good" I smile at her. She smiles back. My job here is done!
"You always seem to know how to make me feel better" she says. Her Smile is so beautiful.
"Yeah, hey how about, you change into somethings more comfy and we watch a film?" I ask, changing the subject.
"Okay" she says. She shuffles off into her bedroom.
I walk over to her huge collection of DVDs and skim through them. She is so organised. There is a shelf for each genre.
I look through the romance one because I know that they are her favourite. I pick love actually, that is her favourite film of all time.
She walks back into the living room with her hair in a messy bun, and dressed in a pair of grey shorts and, what appears to be, my blue shirt.
"Liv, is that my shirt?" I ask
"Erm yeah.. Sorry.. I'll go change" she says
"No don't. I don't mind. I.. Actually think you look cute in it. Because it is so big" I say.
I love it when she wears big shirts. No I love it when she wears my big shirts.
"Okay" she smiles. She walks over to me and sits on the couch.

When the film ends, we don't really notice, been as we have talking through out the whole of it. I am actually surprised she didn't demand silence!
"Wow, it's getting late. I should go" I say.
"Why? Can't you stay?" She asks. Her beautiful brown eyes widen and her lip pops out looking like a sad little puppy.
"I have to, I don't want to stay and end up doing something we will both regret" I say standing.
"But I won't regret it" she says standing with me.
"Well neither will I! But you know we can't. Cap said we can't!" I say.
"Yeah... But who says we are going to tell him?" She says.
She kisses me softly, wrapping her arms around my neck. I take the opportunity to wrap mine around her waist. I pull her closer. We shouldn't be doing this.
I break the kiss.
"Liv, stop. We can't do this" I say
"Why not!?" She asks
"You are obviously upset, and I don't want to take advantage of you" I reply.
"Yeah. You are right. You should go" she says. She seems to be pissed off.
"Okay. I'll see you tomorrow" I say.
I walk out of her apartment.
What the hell did I do that for?! This night could have gone further, but no! I had to ruin everything and open my big mouth. What am I doing?!

I walk down to my car and get inside.
I am so pissed at myself!
I drive and drive. I need to clear my head. I take the long rout back to my apartment.
When I get inside I go straight to bed. I just need to sleep. When I am awake all I can think about is her. And I can't have her. Then again, even when I sleep she is on my mind. In my dreams. I just can't get her off of my mind. I can't help it.