Lovestruck- A Harry Styles Fan fiction

Chapter 2

Chapter 2

I woke up to the buzz of my stupid alarm ringing in my ear. I stood up gradually remembering the events of the day before and the fact that in 12 hours I would be sat in a room full of screaming directioners. For the first time this thought put a smile on my face, I was actually excited. 

"Shut it up" Emily called refering to the alarm I quickly hit the stop button I had almost forgotten about them

"Soz" I replied

"So what're you gonna wear today then?" Phillipa chirped

"Umm dunno probably my dressy thing" I said nervously

"flowery one?" Emily asked

"Yes! and your denim jacket!" Phillipa said getting excited

"Uh ok.." I laughed as they know so much more than I do

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"Leeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeseyyyyyyyyy" My Mum called about an hour or so later "Jacks here"

I ran down the stairs in the clothes Phillipa and Emily had picked out for me before they left.

"He said he'd wait outside" My Mum frowned obvisouly sad at the fact my boyfriend would never come in the house when they were home. I nodded and waited for her to leave before opening the door

"Hi!" Jack smiled

"Hey..." I answered awkwardly

"Let's go then" he said taking my hand in his. The truth is with Jack I never feel good enough, I don't feel like I deserve him, he's the football captin at college and all the girls want him and I kinda feel like I owe him something for choosing me, like he's doing me a favour by being my boyfriend.

"Where're we going then" I smiled squeezing his hand

"Suprise" he grunted back. We stayed silent for the rest of the walk both of us staring ahead deep in thoughts.

Jack suddenly stopped and turned to me in the middle of the quiet street "I'm sorry it isn't much Elise but money's really tight at the moment and it's the best I could do" He said reaching into his back pocket and pulling out and necklace the same one my little sister got as a free gift in a magazine last week. I smiled anyway and threw my arms around his neck

"It's beautiful Jack, I love it" I whispered into the crook of his neck as his strong arms snaked around my waist with the necklace still clutched in his hand

"Glad you like it" he smirked staring into my eyes as he lowered his head and allowed his lips the touch mine, I suddenly felt scared, this wasn't the first time we had kissed but this was the firs time in my whole life I hadn't felt safe. I ignored these feelings and kissed him back. Eventually we pulled apart before he turned me around and moved my hair so he could fasten my new necklace.

"Umm I kinda have to go now, I'd walk you home but I have things to do sorry..." Jack muttered

"Oh it's alright I'll see you tomorrow" I said fast leaning up to peck him on the lips but he held my hips with his strong hands as he forcefully stuck his tongue in my mouth. His hands snook around to cup my bum as he moved closer causing me to step bakwards until my back was against a rough wall. His hands quickly moved upwards and around to my boobs he squeezed hard almost causing me to wince before he pulled back and chuckled then walked off in the opposite direction from my house.

I felt like crying I wanted to go home and sob into my pillow I didn't ever want to leave my room. So I ran. I ran all the way back to my house passing people in the streets who gave me funny looks but I ignored them and I ran as fast as my legs could move.

When I was finally alone in my room I threw myself onto my bed and cried until I had an idea. I sniffed bak the tears and stumbled over to my en suite and locking the door, I pulled my dress over my head and clutched the sharp razor in my shaking hand. I dragged it along the top of my thigh letting the warm blood dribble down my leg, I did it again and just for a second I felt ok...