you clicked your heels & wished for me // r.r [✔️]

Chapter 1: Im Not Okay

Only 5 more minutes until lunch.

      I anxiously tapped my foot on the ground then my teacher gave a "cut it out" kind of look, so I stopped.

***RING***RING***RING***

Finally

      I rushed out of the classroom and went to the cafeteria. Once I got to the cafeteria I looked for my only friend, Skye. I saw her wave so I speed-walked over to her and sat down.

"Hi." Skye smiled

"Hi." I repeated

      I looked around the cafeteria and I saw him. Ryan Ross, my crush and he is also my brother's best friend. I just stared at him.

"Um, y/n? Snap out of it." Skye said, snapping her fingers in front of my face

"Huh? Oh. Sorry." I apologized as my face turned red

"It's ok. Are you ok? Your face is really red." She pointed out

"Oh, I-I'm just getting anxious. Sorry." I said trying to calm down

"It's ok. But you say 'sorry' to much." She giggled

"Oh, um, sorry." I apologized for the third time

Skye just giggled as she continued to eat her lunch

      Skye was the only person besides my parents to understand my anxiety. I'm so thankful she was my friend.

I went back to staring at Ryan

"You should just talk to him." Skye suggested

"I-I can't. You know I can't." I whined

"Yes you can. I know you can." She encouraged

Skye is right. I should talk to him.

      I got up and Skye gave me the thumbs up sign. I walked towards Ryan. Then someone tripped me. The laughter of high schoolers ringed through my ears. I quickly got up and ran to the bathroom and locked myself in a stall. I felt tears roll down my face.

This is what I was afraid of.

"Y/n?" I heard a voice and I knew it was Skye

"Come out here." She requested

      I opened the door and went to Skye. She extended her arms for a hug. I hugged her immediately.

"It's ok." She said

"No it's not!" I cried

"This is why I have anxiety!" I added as I pulled away from the hug

"Ok maybe the lunchroom was a bad place to talk to Ryan." She admitted

"I'm sorry I pushed you to talk to him." Skye added

"It's ok. I should watch whose trying to fuck with me." I said, wiping my eyes

Skye just giggled

***RING***RING***RING***

"Fuck! Now I'm late for class!" I exclaimed, my hands started to shake slightly

"Y/n, calm down. You're hands are shaking. I don't want you to have any anxiety attacks." Skye worried

"I can't help it." I gritted my teeth

I rushed to my math class

"Y/n, you're late." Mr Wilson angrily stated

"I know." I sighed

I looked down as I walked to my seat.

Damnit, now everyone is staring at me.

      I copied the notes Mr Wilson wrote on the whiteboard until I stopped paying attention. I started to doodle in my notebook.

"Y/n! Pay attention!" Mr Wilson snapped

I hate school.