For The Love Of Guns : Roc Royal Love Story

Chapter 4 : In loving memory ❤️

Aaliyah : Cont.

     I pick him up out of the crib , and stare into his deep brown eyes . He smiles at me , he's my son and I won't let him see me upset so I take him out of the room and down the steps . As soon as we hit the last step , my heart drops as if something has happened . I just try to ignore my emotions and head into the kitchen .
"Ee Ee Ee" He giggles clapping his little fat hands
"Yes baby eat eat" I smile
     I open the refrigerator , pop out one of the bottles and hand it to him . He smiles at me , as I get the baby food . His little fat self is always ready to eat , just like his daddy . I smile at him as I shut the fridge , I grab a spoon from the drawer and head into the living room . He smiles as he plop him down on the couch just then my phone rings , it's Jae .
"Hello ?" I answer
"Where are you ?" She sounds worried
"Chresanto's" I giggle
"What ? You and him get along ?" She laughs
"No bitch ! I'm just here until he gets back from another dummy mission" I shrug
"Please tell me Vincent was not -" I cut her off
"Yes" I shake my head
"The hell" She says as I feed Cj
"Come over me and Cj are lonely . I need to talk to you about some stuff to" I say
"Ok , on my way call you when I get there" She says
     I hang up , continuing to feed Cj . He's just steadily eating , and clapping his head . Strangely he has a fascination with his hands and feet like most babies I guess . As soon as I stick the spoon in his mouth , he sticks his little fat hand in and all the food comes out .
"Ugh Chres ! That's nasty !" I shout
"Mama" He giggles
"Yes mommy is mad at you" I pop his hand
"Not funny" I point in his face
     I rush to the kitchen and grab a few paper towels , rush back and begin the process of cleaning off the couch , and his hands and face .

Chresanto :

     I rush behind the wall , gun shots are being fired everywhere . I'm not wounded but I notice boss is . I tried getting to him more than once and I failed every single time . I called Jacob's name twice and he hasn't came yet , not sure what's going on at this point .
"Go home !" I hear boss shout
"No we ain't leaving you !" I yell across the room
     We shouldn't have came , but before I knew it all my friends were leaving . I couldn't do shit but try to stop them but they were running and shooting , none of us hit except for my baby moms father .
"Boss" I finally rush over to him
"Chresanto , I won't make it" He coughs up blood
"You got to , for me come on" I try to pick him up but he resists
"Chresanto go now ! It's an order" He coughs again
"Boss I'm not leaving you , I'm to loyal for that"
     No more words , I drop my gun and pick him up , running with him in my arms . Never thought I was this strong but I won't complain . This man is like my dad and I refuse to let him die in front of my face .
"Chresanto stop" He says letting his weight fall on me
"Boss let me save you" I mumble
"It's to-" He doesn't finish his sentence
     I could tell by everyone's face that I was to fucking late . This man that I loved and cared for died in my arms , no gay but I'm broken . I didn't have a choice now but to let go but I just couldn't I couldn't let him leave me . Fuck whoever thought I was to late I couldn't , before I knew it tears were pouring down my face . I was crying harder than I'd ever cried nothing was real about any of this , I didn't want it to be real .
"No no fuck no no" I found myself barely saying
"Chres man , I'm sorry but it's over" I feel someone touch my shoulder
"No screw you !" I yell getting up off the ground and pushing him
"Bro it's me chill" Rayan hugs me
I can hear everyone crying , as boss would always say "Real men cry" and I will sit here and cry all night if I have to . How the hell am I going to tell Aaliyah about this shit , what am I going to do about anything ?
"It's your turn Chres , you've got to step up and lead man" I feel Prince touch my should as I hug Ray
"Yea it's only right" Vinny says
"Really" Nolen sighs
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I slowly walk into the house , tears still falling . Everyone behind me with blood shot eyes and hurt hearts . As soon as I see Aaliyah sitting on the couch I fall to my knees . She stares while sitting there holding a sleeping Cj , I can see the hurt in her eyes before anything can happen .
"Aaliyah I'm sorry I tried he just I couldn't I don't please forgive me I'm sorry I just I can't even I don't know" I cry even harder
She puts Cj down on the couch , I drop my head as she walks over to me and gets down to my level .
"Chresanto what happened ?" She looks me in the eyes
"Your dad he just .. I tried to save him .." I cry
"Chresanto what ?" She cries
"Your dad died" I let it all out tears everywhere
With an instant she breaks into tears , if we try hard enough we'll cry a pool of tears . She holds onto me and I hug her . I stand up , and pull her up , she still cries , and then she starts to punch me in my chest , I just stand there.
"You fucking did this ! It's your fault you did this !" She cries while punching me
Jae comes out of nowhere and grabs Aaliyah , Jae drags her up the steps and down the hallway to my bed room then the door slams. I just stand in the middle of my living room no more crying just red eyes and sniffles .

Aaliyah :

I can't believe my daddy is gone , out of all people . My daddy is gone , I don't want this to be true but there's no use , he's gone , I'll go home and I won't have anyone to fuss with . Nobody to laugh when I hurt myself , nobody to hold me when I miss my mom .
"I want my daddy" I cry in Jae's arms
"I know Liyah" She says quietly
"I don't have nobody now !" I scream and cry