Aaliyah : CONT.
I woke up and realized that I had no choice but to accept the fact that my dad was gone . The hardest part is knowing that now I have to face the hardest decision . Who's going to take his place as being the boss , now sure there are plenty of people who could . The real question is who's really fit for this position ? Well there's plenty of good answers for that , of course , Chresanto is the perfect person but I question his maturity. Rayan has good qualities but he isn't all for the just incase he gets arrested thing , he was never good at lying to anyone , he's my older brother I would know . Daniel is smart and takes careful action but he lacks judgement sometimes he choices aren't the best .
"Baby I'm leaving" Michael says
"Okay babe" I nod
I can't sit here and think of everyone I know in that gang so I guess I'll be taking a trip to the warehouse today . I never liked the place but I've spent some of my life there also . I slide out of the bed and land on my feet , just as soon as I begin to walk down the hallway towards the bathroom I begin to think about Cj . He's not home but I miss him , I hope he's at the warehouse when I get there . I remember the day my dad baby proofed the warehouse it was about 3 months before Cj was born .
FLASHBACK
I opened the warehouse door to reveal a beautiful baby shower set in place . Rayan placed an all white crown over my head and smiled at me . Chresanto stood there smiling while having a conversation with Jacob , I'd never seen him smile so big before .
"So what are you going to name it ?" Corahn asked me
"I don't know yet" I give a little giggle
"Chresanto" Chresanto says popping up
"Really ?" Rayan pops up also
"I never said that" I smile
"Aaliyah take a seat" my dad pulls up a chair
I sit down as my dad hands me a piece of cake ...
Flashback Over
Chresanto :
I sit in the warehouse rolling up an el , Rayan watches me closely and I'm just minding my business because he's not going to annoy me today . I look up as I see the light from the door opening , Corahn walks in with him nine in his hand . There's blood all over his shirt , and he's clearly mad .
"Bro who did you shoot ?" I ask as I finish rolling
"I shot my sisters boyfriend" He shrugs taking the shirt off
"Who is he ? Why you shoot him ?" Rayan looks
"Bro he a BSG , and that nigga tried me , he pulled the strap out on me and I pulled it out and shot 'em" He nodded
"Bro you let your sister be with BSG ?" I gave a look
"Man it doesn't even matter anymore" He shrugs
Before I can give a response , Aaliyah walks into the warehouse . She's looking like she has something serious to say , she stares at Corahn for a moment and walks towards Rayan and I . Cj is on the floor on a blanket playing with his toys , and Aaliyah don't even acknowledge him she sits right next to me .
"Can I talk to you in Daddy's office ?" She whispers to me
"Okay" I nod
I hand Rayan the L , then , Aaliyah and , I walk to the back . Aaliyah is serious I can tell , she never goes to the back and she never goes into her dad's office.
"So what's up ?" She sits behind the desk and I sit infront of it
"Your the boss now Roc" She nods
"Me ? No I couldn't do that I don't want to like I'm not fit for all of that Liyah" I shake my head
"Your all fit for the job but nobody is more fit than you" She stares
"Aaliyah I'm telling you let , Rayan do it , he's your older brother and your blood" I raise my left eyebrow
"Chresanto your doing it , my choice I've made it . There's not an answer"
She doesn't say anything after that she just gets up , the way she walks out of the room makes me a bit angry . I wasn't planning on doing this man , I don't have any time for this I barely had time when this wasn't my job . I stand up and walk around the room , staring at all the pictures of , Aaliyah and the boss . There's a large blown up picture of Aaliyah when she was a kid on the wall . She doesn't look much different enough , in fact she still looks the same . Just staring at this picture makes me think of how I would've felt if I was in his shoes around this time .
Having to raise a daughter , and trap , kill , and run almost everyday . I think about all the shit I'd do to someone if something happened to 'Lil Roc , but in all reality , I'd be brain dead for a few days after that . I'd cry everyday , I'd want to kill everyday because there's no point in caring for myself or anybody else if my son isn't here .
"Chresanto !" I hear a voice call
When I turn there's nobody there , I look around and I know I'm not going crazy . Someone said my name for sure .
"Chresanto !" It calls again
"Who is it ?" I question
"Chresanto , you can do it , it was meant for you" It says
"This isn't for me" I walk out of the room
I walk into a room full of people , people who I care about . My son , my baby mom , all my brothers blood or not . I just want them to be the best and have the best , and maybe I can't think for myself on this decision it's about all of us .
"You good bro ?" Rayan says
"Yeah I'm good , I'll be back , Liyah I'm taking , Cj" I pick up Cj
"Okay" She nods at me
I stare at him dead in his eyes and he starts to laugh . He's always laughing it's normal for him , my son is a happy baby , and I love him either way . I want to make his childhood the best I can , I'll stop at nothing to do so .
ŞİMDİ OKUDUĞUN
For The Love Of Guns : Roc Royal Love Story
FantasyI don't understand why you just don't quit . I beg and plead , I even try to leave but nothing works . You just brush me off , one day I'll stop loving you and you'll finally understand . I love you but I can't watch you throw your life away Chresan...
