A Little Bit of Everything

Finals

My first rant/stream of consciousness thing. Unedited, because who actually has time for that ;)

Ah. Yes. The joy of the week before finals. Terror week. Week of procrastination and random stress attacks during breakfast as you realize that you've barely studied and finals are in three days. Yes. My favorite week.

Right now, I have about 35 minutes of 'free time' (basically a period where my class is online and I don't have any work.) and what am I doing? Studying for the finals that are in three days? Nope. I'm writing this rant about how stressful finals are. I'm special that way. I hate finals so much. You really expect me to remember everything from the beginning of the year? Really? When I still use my fingers to count? Are you sure you trust me with 20% of my semester grade? 

No, I didn't think so...

But then again, I guess finals could go really well (especially seeing as I'm the kind of person who thinks I'll fail a test and get a 105%) but I seriously lack any motivation. I literally just spent two hours on Buzzfeed with the Quizlet webpage open so I could feel better about myself. Yep. Not smart. Now what am I doing, writing this. Again. With the Quizlet tab still open. 

I'm not ready for finals, but I'm still going to finish this because I really don't want to study. I'm tired, stressed, have my Castle entry due tomorrow, but I need to study and watch a home sports game going on tomorrow. Do I need to continue to write this? Most definitely not. But I'm bored. And procrastinating. So um here you are?

Idk what to even right about now. I'm just kind of trying to clear my mind to (maybe) study. Prob not though. Finals. 

I have an Algebra II final on Monday, but I'm not super worried about that one. It's gonna be pretty easy as long as I remember to put things as negative, and the unit.

I'm worried about Tuesday though. I have both Biology (which is gonna have like 51643785647823657834567238657483265783 questions) and English (which my teacher gave a very vague study guide, and I don't always do too well on her tests :/ but I'm good at writing essays and not using S-V sentences so idk)

Wednesday I have a Spanish exam. ugh. Not ready for that one. I take Spanish online, so despite being an exam in general, it's online. Meaning the words don't stick and I've never met my teacher and I don't know how to pronounce half the words. Further more, I don't work at all in that class. I'm literally on Wattpad or Canva the whole time. Not good, I know, but I'm not exactly motivated to do actual work, like I said. Then I have my Chorus exam, which I'm not too worried about because my teacher loves me, but then again I don't work in that class either so idk, again.

Finally on Thursday, I have History. My teacher is the best. He literally (in the study period today and yesterday) played a game with us, and through it went over literally every. single. question. on. the. whole. exam. And we were allowed to write it all down. So if I don't get a 100 on that exam I will literally cry. Then I have PE/health next. Which is just push-ups (apparently I do the best push-ups for a girl that he's seen in a while?!) running the pacer (I'd rather get hit by a bus tbh, either would have the same effect) and the sit and reach test thing (I was a gymnast, I got this) and sit ups (um. idk. I don't have too many opinions on this one tbh.) Then a health test. Which is only 20 questions. Pretty easy.

Then we get Friday off :)))))))) So basically writing and sleeping. And possibly procrastination? Idk. Most likely procrastination.

But I really hate finals. I don't want to sit still with a vague study guide, and attempt to study. Especially for a test that literally could bring my grade down to like a C or something. I would literally be kicked off of wattpad if that happened. I'm a straight A student, and I'm honestly terrified of getting a B on the exam. And since this is when the exams will start to actually count for me, it just amps up the terror. So I probably should be studying right now.

But I'm not gonna, because when have I actually done something as early as I said I would?

That's right. Never.

And I honestly hate that so much, but am I gonna change it? Probably not. 

Wow this got really serious real fast. I was planning this to be funnyish and relatable and not heavy, but oh well. I guess it's kind of like finals. totally not what you planned, and completely failed.

My mom just walked by and I literally just switched to the Quizlet tab. Omg what is happening to me. I didn't even study when I was on it. I literally looked at one flashcard. So now I'm here again. Writing. Instead of studying. 

It just happened again. Great. I should probably study. Well this rant/stream of consciousness was funish? Idk well. You can expect another one later. Probably during the complete terror that is finals. Maybe after. Idk.

-A girl who isn't exactly the smartest when it comes to common-sense and is drowning in studying. Well, technically not yet. She keeps pushing it off to the side.

Update: Yeah I'm not gonna study today. Cool math games sounds more fun. Maybe tomorrow.