A Little Bit of Everything

5 Facts About Me

I super sorry that I didn't post this thing within the time-frame thing because I was at a volleyball camp with like no wi-fi or service and I didn't have much time to focus on things besides sleeping, eating, and volleyball camp. :/

1) I've known what I wanted to be when I grew up from the 3rd Grade.

In the 3rd grade, my mom took me to West End to watch the fabulous musical, Wicked. It was really love at first sight. Ever since then, I've dreamed of being Elphaba on Broadway or West End. Of course, the dream has shifted a bit, turning into Galinda (partly because my voice changed from alto to soprano) and then just kind of opening up to all Broadway musicals. I've listened to a million of them, auditioned for all the school musicals and plays I could get my hands on. At one point, it was simply just the dream to act. Wether it was movies, TV shows, broadway, or just anything, I would be happy. Two years ago, I even auditioned for a movie, and made it to the final stage. Sadly, I didn't get the part because my hair was brown and not dirty blonde. But I still love to act so much and still dream of Broadway.

2) Now, I'm starting to second-guess my choices.

This is something I have never really told anyone (except briefly mentioning in an conversation to my parents)... So, here you go internet. Since I've taking up writing, I've fallen in love with creating characters and making them come to life. I love writing. But then again, I also love to debate and I get good grades in school. Then again, I still love to sing and act. So I have no idea what I want to do anymore. My dad told me that the one I think about the most is what I want most to do. And I think about writing a lot. But that might just be from the fact that I have something due soon. Or, it could be because I want to write it. And it sucks that I'm having to think about all these decisions, because they'll be affecting the classes I take because I'll be going to college soon and my classes are really starting to matter. But I have no idea what I'm doing right now. Recently, I've been hating my singing voice and criticizing every note. I haven't been getting leads in plays, and when I do, it's because I'm the oldest in the group (meaning I was 13 at the time and the rest were like 5). And now I can't take classes, because they don't offer them at my school and I don't speak the language on the economy. I'm not sure what I want anymore, and yet I still tell people I want to be on Broadway when I grow up. *sigh*

3) I'm sometimes embarrassed by my grades.

Alright. This is yet another one that I haven't really told people... I'm a straight A student, so I shouldn't hate my grades, right? Nope! Sometimes I despise that I can get an A on a test without studying. Not far enough that I'd purposely fail a test, but enough that sometimes I dwell on it for an hour or two. I hate it so much when someone asks what grade I got and I have to tell them that it was an 100 or something when they got a C or a B. Or when they asked if I studied and I say no. It kills me. Also, I have allegedly been called a know-it-all which is the EXACT OPPOSITE of what I try to go for. I don't want to seem like I know what I'm doing, because I don't, and acting like I know everything is sooooo far from what I'm going for. I try to downplay my grades, by just telling them I did okay on the test or something, or I don't really care about the class (not entirely lies).  I just want to be seen as smart, but not like that smart. But of course, despite me never telling anyone my number grade in the class, my freaking cover is blown when two different teachers give me the academic award and I have to go up for the 4.0 award thing. And it's really awkward because none of my other friends get the award things and then I have like 3 and I hate to show off but they freaking call me up to the front. :( Okay rant over.

4) I play volleyball.

I'm kinda running out of super-interesting facts, and the past ones were kinda depressing (oops) so I went with a more fun one. I love volleyball so much. I love how it's a team sport, so everyone is cheering for you on and off the court. (Track, which I also run, has it's own great aspects about being a solo-sport but you know, teams can be p cool). And that's great because I did gymnastics for most of my life, where people don't really cheer. Anyways, my team is full of fabulous people, and my coach is even better and I can't wait for the season to start in like 5 or so days. I'm not the best player, but I'm working on getting better and I JUST GOT MY OVERHAND SERVE WHICH IVE BEEN WORKING ON FOR A LONG TIME SO THATS GOOD!

5) I'm super excited for this school year tbh.

Like, idk why, I'm just so excited. My schedule worked out perfectly, and I'm so excited to meet all the new people. We also just got a new choir teacher, so I'm super excited to meet him and then everything works out so well, despite me taking a math class higher than my grade is 'supposed to.' I just have a feeling that this year is going to be great!

Lol this took me like 3 days to write. Crap I need to write like half of the 31 day challenge in like 7 dayssssn uhhhhh. oh well. I'll make it happen? ugh