Living with my ex-bestfriend

Chapter 8: the inbetween state

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SAMs POV

I could feel a lite probing noise intruding into my heavenly dreams, in and out of consciousness I drifted. I could faintly hear the voices of people talking except my eye lids felt too heavy to open. Someone brushed the back of their hand across my cheek, whispering a quiet sentence. I couldn't quite understand it. 'Speak up!' I wanted to yell. But my body wouldn't let me. It felt as if I were awake and asleep all at the same time. I couldn't remember what had happened. Why wouldn't my body let me wake up?

It was an internal struggle, a sort of mind over matter situation. Someone was holding my hand, oh how boldly I wanted to give it a small squeeze. I wondered if it were my parents..

'Mom! Dad! Please, wake me up!' But they couldn't hear me. I was in my own little world, a quiet, lonely world.

All I wanted was to wake up, I wanted to open my eyes, to see, to hear.

That's when everything that happened came rushing back, the code red, intruders, the struggle, and the blood. Lots and lots of blood. That last thing I remember was Tyler. His beautiful face, telling me to come back. To not leave him. But where am I now?

"Sam?" I could hear him. He was closer now, he seemed more in reach. "Sam, I'm right here baby doll. Don't be scared. Can you feel my hand? Sammy, if you can hear me squeeze my hand." I tried but I couldn't lift the heavy weight that seemed to be coming down quickly and hard. "Come on baby, open your eyes. Let me see your beautiful eyes." His voice dripped with sadness. He was worried, scared, and sad. He probably feels bad for not getting to me quick enough. But he did get to me. If it weren't for him, I'd probably be dead right now. I probably wouldn't be feeling all this pain, because if it weren't for him I would most likely be dead. I would be on the other side.

'Come on Sam. You can do it.' I mentally prepared myself. Putting all the effort I could muster up I was able to move my fingers. I wasn't able to move them a lot, that was obvious, but I was able to move them enough that I could hear Tyler gasp and clutch onto my hand even tighter. All I wanted was to open my eyes. The only problem was, was that I couldn't.

"Oh Sam! I love you baby girl! I'm so sorry...I love you with all my heart. I'll be here whenever you decide to wake up. I'm not leaving you. I promise."

I could sense the tears falling from his face. Even though I couldn't see him, I had a feeling, a feeling so strong that I somehow Knew he was in tears. I hated putting him through this, why wouldn't they just let me wake up!

The in between state is a state of subconsious-ness. A state where you're awake, but asleep. For every person it is different. Some describe the in between state as a out of body experience, where they are looking down at themselves and watching everything. By for me, I am still in my body. I just don't have very much control over it. Moving my fingers took as much effort as moving a truck load of bricks when you're only one person. Therefor, almost impossible. I don't know what got me to be able to do it. Maybe it was the love I felt radiating off Tyler, or maybe...actually, I don't think it's anything else but that. The love that Tyler and I share is life saving. I don't have one doubt that if he weren't here, I wouldn't be either. In fact, I wouldn't even be on this planet.

I could feel someone else walk into the room I was in. Was I in the hospital? I must be. It kind of smells like hospital... Wait! I can smell now?

"How's she doing?" It was a females voice, she came over and stood next to me. I wondered if she was a nurse, checking the machines I was probably hooked up to.