Fearless ~ Luke Hemmings

Nine

Today was the day the boys had their concert and since it was the first concert that we were joining them for we wanted to do something special. I left the boys a note saying we would be out for a little while and then Elle and I left. We had decided that we were going to make homemade t-shirts with the boys names and years on the back and then just kind of design them. I, of course, was putting Hemmings on mine. Although, at this point I wasn't too sure if we were going to be together much longer, and Elle put Irwin on hers as she was closest with him. The message I had seen was still scaring the shit out of me and I didn't know if I should tell Elle about it or not.

"Elle have you found the black spray paint?"

I heard her call from the next aisle, "yup, it's over here!"

"Perfect, I have the shirts and the paint pens! Now we just have to find the brushes."

Suddenly I saw her zoom down the aisle's running at top speed. A few seconds later I heard her scream, "FOUND SOME!"

"Alright let's go check out!"

We dropped everything at the check out and grabbed a chocolate bar to eat during our process. When we arrived back at the hotel the boys had already gone to sound check. We got to work straight away. After a very messy but very fun paint fight, paint on my chocolate that I almost killed Elle for, and me painting Elle's hair we finished our shirts an hour before we had to be at the venue. We quickly got ready, both throwing on black jeans and our home made shirts, and ran down to the car. We ended up being 20 minutes early so we decided to go backstage and wish the boys luck, and that way they could see our shirts up close. I could hear Luke talking to someone as I got closer.

"Man I can't do this! What if this isn't what she wants?"

I stopped Elle and signaled for her to listen to the conversation.

"Luke, you have to man up and do it now or it will never happen."

That was Michael for sure. It seems him and Michael have been talking about this for awhile.

"Mike she gets nervous really easily and I can't bear to see her go through all the pain this will bring!"

"You can't keep this to yourself forever."

"Now just isn't the right time Micheal."

That was it. I had had enough, there was no way I was going to let this boy stay with me out of pity, even if he was a gorgeous rockstar.

"Luke!"

As soon as I turned the corner he looked as if he was about to run away.

"I've had enough of hearing broken conversations between you and Michael. If you want to break up with me just do it! I'll leave and go home, but don't keep me here because you feel bad about making a mistake!"

Now he just looked heartbroken.

"Eva this wasn't a mistake! Listen-"

"Boys it's time to get on stage." Great timing stage crew, just perfect.

"Just give him one second." Michael stalled for us, leading him away.

"Listen Eva, I've got to go on stage but I promise to explain everything once I'm done. Just meet me in the hotel room after our set, please."

"Luke, I don't kn-"

"Eva, please."

I couldn't bear the desperate look on his face.

"Alright, I'll see you at the room in an hour."

"Thank you!" And with that he ran off to perform.

Now I had to make my decision, should I meet him or should I just go home? I feel like I owe him the chance to explain but at the same time if he had a problem why wouldn't he just tell me?

"Eva, don't even think about it. You are going to meet him and talk it out."

"Elle when have I ever dealt with my problems? I always run away or avoid it, why would now be any different?"

"Because you really like this boy and that has never happened before."

"Yeah I guess."

With that Elle stayed to watch the performance and I went back to the hotel room and waited for him to get there. I changed into some sweats but I left my homemade shirt on, I wanted him to at least see it. I began scrolling through instagram and about 20 minutes later I heard the lock clicking into place. Here he comes, let's see what he has to say.

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SORRY! That is all I can say. Things have been pretty rough on my end and this chapter kind of sucks but I wanted to get something up since it's been like 2 months. Things still aren't great but I have a week off school so I'm going to try and update like every day for you guys! I love you all for sticking with the story thank you so much!! I promise it'll get better!

Love you all!! xxKassie