Aura

Chapter Ten

I woke up the next morning feeling like I was on my death bed. My entire body was throbbing and my headache was unreal. I looked at my surroundings. I seen Tay next to me and it took me a few seconds to realize that we were in her room. She was knocked out with a bonnet on her head and an oversized t-shirt. Her mouth was open and she still looked so beautiful. How?

Recollection of the night before started to come to my head and I instantly felt sick. I ran to the bathroom and regurgitated in Tay's toilet. I desperately hoped her mother didn't hear me. I sat over the toilet feeling like the biggest piece of shit. All the events of last night started to come back and I just wanted to slit my wrist at how fucking stupid I was.

I had tried to seduce Prince and he turned it down... Then I offered to suck him off... Then when he turned me down yet again I punched him in his face. Who was I? What the fuck. I knew Prince was probably super turned off and never wanted to talk to me again. I didn't even think I could face him. My stomach was in nots over the embarrassment I had brought on myself.

"Ughhh, you good?" Tay came in the bathroom behind me holding her head as I knew it was probably pounding just as bad if not worse than mine.

"No. I embarrassed myself last night Tayanna," I spoke slowly as my words slurred a little bit.

"It's not as bad as you think it is. You just are overthinking it." She sat down next to me
by the toilet and threw her head back leaning on the sink cabinet.

"..." Silence filled the room but it wasn't awkward. It was a, I feel sick like I'm about to die , so let's shut up and just enjoy the vibes kind of silence.

"I met a boy last night. He was cool," Tay said breaking the silence while she yawned.

"What was he like," I mumbled back. I genuinely wanted to know but my head was stopping me from sounding genuine.

"He was different. I don't know. I think I like him," She said nonchalantly like it wasn't a big deal. In all my years of knowing Tay she had never admitted to liking a boy. She would always say 'it's whatever' or 'he's cool but I'm so young I'm just trying to experience life.

"Ughhh," I tried to suppress the feeling of my brain pounding against my skull by pressing my hand against my head. Once it stopped a little I continued. "So what happened, like how..." I lost track of thought for a minute. I think I was still a little intoxicated. "...did you meet or whatever?" I continued once I remembered.

"I was sitting on the couch drunk and I couldn't find any of you guys," She said referring to the boys and I."He came up to me and he was drunk to." Her sentences were choppy as she tried to remember the sequence the events happened in."Then I think he asked me where my friend's were?.. I told him I didn't know... Then he asked if I came alone... I told him I didn't remember... I asked if he knew where Laylani was... He made me stand up and he balanced me as he walked around the party with me. In my mind I remember thinking he was going to take advantage of me but," She yawned again."I didn't really care because I was kind of horny and I was drunk."

I thought about how I would have been scared if I was in that situation. A little bit of concerned washed over me as I started to get scared at the thought that Tayanna was not scared. A boy she barely knew navigating her through the party. Tay was always laid back but sometimes I felt like she was to laid back about things. This boy would could have had sex with her. Tay wasn't a virgin because she thought that word was a social construct and refused to be defined by it. She had lost her virginity last year to a boy that she was kind of talking to. After they had sex, she lost interest however and kind of just stopped entertaining him. I was the only person she told and at the time although it was shocking at the same time it wasn't... Tay didn't care about much of anything except her friends and her mother and father.