Beat of My Heart (Zayn Malik)

Chapter 34; Come and Go

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"Yes this is her. May I ask who I calling?"

"Tori." I breathed out. I can't believe I'm doing this.

"Oh hey! How are you doing?" She questioned. Why is she so nice to me? I'm dating her ex boyfriend. Not that I want to her be sticking pins into a voodoo doll of me.

"In fine. I guess. Can I ask you something?" I looked around at my surroundings. I was sitting on a bus bench. Irish people left and right, up and down the busy streets of Dublin.

"Go ahead."

"What exactly happened between you Zayn?"

She sighed.

"Please just tell me." I pleaded.

"Are you crying?" She asked.

In that moment I realized that I was crying.

"Can you just tell me?" I sobbed.

"Fine."


~*Zayn's POV


I sat on the edge of our bed, face in my hands crying.

Her face. Just before she stormed out. Her greenish blue eyes turned grey. Her tan complexion was then pale. And she wasn't smiling. Her smile. Probably the thing I love most about her. And I took it away.

"Zayn mate what did you say to her?" Niall questioned coming into the room. My back was faced to him. He can't see me like this. Nobody can.

"That I got drunk last night. And I-I cheated." I said hiding the emotion in my voice.

"You did what!" He yelled more then asked.

I shrugged.

"Why would- how- how could you be that fucking stupid? Out of all the boys, your one to get the most girls. Why? Why are they attracted to such an ass! Rebecca, Perrie, they were beautiful and you cheated on them. Now Tori! She's more then a pretty face Zayn! She has feelings! She has a heart. A heart that she practically poured into my hands last night. She was so worried. So upset and you left her. With me slowly patching up her broken heart that you have once again tore in half. Im surprised she has any tears left." He spat.

I swallowed hard.

"We're leaving for the meet and greet." He sighed. "I'm sorry I snapped. It's just- Tori is beautiful. Smart. Funny. Straight up perfect. I don't want to see her broken." He said.

This time I turned to face him. His eyes widened at the sight of my face. I already know that my cheeks are stained with tears.

"It's not because of you." I said. "It's because of me. I screwed up. Big time."

"I haven't seen you cry in, well. Ever." The last part came out barely as a whisper. Which isn't true. I've cried once when I family member died. I don't think that he recalls that.

But it's true it's been a while. Even when Perrie walked out on me after, the incident. I never cried. Not once. Sure I was upset that she left.

He came and sat next to me.

"It'll be okay." He said.

I know it won't. He's just trying to make me feel better.

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I wasn't very excited for the meet and greet. I guess you could tell by my face because fans kept asking me if I was okay. I just smiled and nodded. I knew my smile didn't reach my eyes.

We were just finishing up with only about seven or eight fans left.

"Here you go." I said giving the last fan the cd. I played with my bracelet.

"Um, no hello?"

I shot my head up.

"Tori?"

"That would be my name!" She exclaimed.

There it is. The smile. The twinkle in her, yet red and puffy, eyes. The laugh. The things I live off of. I stood up and led her behind our banner.

"You came back." I breathed.

"Yeah, I guess I did." She said.

"Your still mad." I sighed.

"Well, no. Upset really," she said. "Can you blame me?"

I shook my head. "I'm so sorry."

"Well I did some thinking..." She said.

"Please, don't. Please don't end this- I'm sorry! I'm sorry I'm sorry! I'll do anything!" I was on my knees begging for forgiveness. I felt tears sting at my eyes.

"Hey! I'm not!" She laughed.

"Oh." I got up. I felt the heat on my cheeks. "Continue," my voice broke. Damn.

"I'm not breaking up with you, it's just. I don't exactly forgive you." She said.

I wetted my lips. "That's understandable," I said.

"Yet it's not possible that I won't. I'll get over it eventually."

Eventually. Could be a day. A week, a month, a year! Even years! But she's worth it. I wrapped her in a hug.

"What made you decide this?" I asked curiously.

"Well I realized that I like you. I really like you. Really, really, like you." She said.

"You really like me?" I asked smiling.

Her cheeks turned red. "Really, really."

"You know," I began softly. "I have no idea, out of all people in the world, I was gifted you. I'm not special. I'm not insanely fantastic. I'm sort of a dick actually," I softly chuckled.

"Language." She playfully tapped my chest.

"But here I am," I continued. "Holding the world in my hands. I had no idea that one person could make me so happy. I love you so, much." I said kissing her.

I heard foot steps rounding the corner.

"Oh Tori! I love you!"

"Oh my god Zayn I could never live without you!"

"You make me so happy!"

"Mwah!"

Tori hid her blush in my shirt.

"Come on lovebirdys," Louis sad making a heart with his hands whilst Harry made a bird. "We have a concert to get too."

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SONG IF THE CHAPTER
Turn Your Face
Little Mix

Zayn said he wouldn't be a part of my fan fiction anymore if I didn't promote Little Mix.

Lol, I'm so lame.

yayy; their together.