PAST AND PRESENT (COMPLETED)

CHAPTER 9

ALL THE CHARACTER BELONG TO MEYERS AND L.J. SMITH. THE ONLY THING I OWN IS THE PLOT OF THE STORY AND THE EVENTS.

BELLA'S POV

I was waiting for Alice and Em to arrive, when I start to think. Maybe waiting ten seconds wasn't enough, maybe he was in shock or taken by surprise and was about to push her away when I grabbed her by the hair. No! He would have pushed her away before I pulled her away. I keep hoping to wake up and find out that it's just a bad dream. That I'm still pregnant, Damon and Stefan are here and that Tanya never came.

"Hey sis it's really good to see you." I jumped I hadn't been playing attention to my surroundings, so I didn't hear them coming. I got up and walked over to Emmett, who pulled me into a bear hug.

"Not so tight Em. I'm pregnant."

"Sorry sis."

"It's okay." Em put me down and I turned to look at Alice, who ran toward and nearly made me fall down if Em hadn't caught me.

"It's good to see you to Alice."

"Sorry Bella I just thought you wouldn't forgive us for not believing you."

"It doesn't matter I understand why you didn't. So no big deal."

We talked for awhile. It felt good to see them again, to hear Em's jokes and to feel Alice's perkiness. I wanted to see my family and stay with them forever, but I can't. Knowing that Edward cheated on me is what started this whole thing. Maybe if I hadn't fallen love with him things would be different, but I didn't. Maybe if we hadn't provoked Katherine then I wouldn't have been kidnapped, then I would probably never have meet the Cullens and never have fallen in love with Edward. Stupid Katherine. If she hadn't disgraced her family then I wouldn't be having this problem. I would have been dead by know. If it wasn't for Nessie and my unborn child then I would have either killed myself, or gone to the Volturi and begged for my death. Maybe I should. I could leave my baby with his/her father. Then I'll find Katherine myself and make her pay, not just for me but for my brother. She deceivers to die for them not for me, she may have hurt me badly in the past but she hurt my brothers a hell of a lot more than me. After I find her and kill her, I'll find a way to kill myself. After I say goodbye to my family and to my brothers. For not just being my brothers, but for being my family, friends, and fathers whenever I need them. In whatever form I need them to be in. I'll see them before I die, I'll make sure off that. My phone rang and I picked it up before even thinking about what I was doing.

"Bella. don't you dare go and kill yourself after that baby is born. DON'T YOU DARE!"

"It was just a passing thought Alice. It doesn't mean anything."

"Your lying. I'll send Damon and Stefan after you if you even think about killing yourself." Dammit. She's playing the Damon on me. Stefan I can handle, but not Damon. He'll die trying to save me from killing myself. I had no choice, but to do things her way.

"Fine. Just don't tell them a thing."

"Fine. We miss you. All of us."

"I doubt. that," I whispered, "Hows Nessie doing with the idea of Tanya being her step-mother?"

"Tany's not here."

"Oh, he's waiting for Nessie to get settled and then get her used to the idea. I get it. Alice I really need to be along right now, so bye and tell Nessie I love her." I hung up. I couldn't deal with her trying to get me to go back, because I can't see him again. My heart's already broken, I don't need more pain. They only reason I'm pulling through is for the baby and the pleasure of killing Katherine myself.