PAST AND PRESENT (COMPLETED)

CHAPTER 19

I DON'T OWN ANY OF THE CHARACTERS, MEYER AND L.J. SMITH DO. I ONLY OWN THE PLOT, THE EVENTS THAT GO WITH IT, SAM, AND ZOEY.

BELLA'S POV

Emmett and Jasper were trying their best to pull a prank on Damon. What they didn't know was that Damon always when someone was going to pull something on him. It's a reason why I almost never got away with it. Stefan was making plans with our nephew Zach, so that as soon as he could he would move back and we would fall. After a few weeks, maybe months. Rosalie, Alice, Nessie, and Esme went shopping. I was able to get out of it. Sam, Jake, and Zoey were trying to think of ways to get back at Emmett for the last prank he pulled on them. Carlisle was at work, like always. Edward was out hunting, and I was in our room, thinking.

I know right me thinking and not out hunting with my husband, but there was something bothering me. And if I hunted with Edward then I'm sure he would have picked up on it. And I couldn't tell him if I didn't know myself.

Which is why I was on the couch, staring out the window, just thinking.

What didn't make sense to me. I know I let down my guard, but that was almost a week ago. And nothing has happened. Then I remembered.

"DAMON!" I shouted at the top of my lungs.

No answer.

"DAMON JAMES SALVATORE, GET UP HERE RIGHT NOW OR I SWEAR I WILL BURN EVERYONE OF YOUR JACKETS!" I know I didn't have to yell, but it added affect. Something Damon told me should always be added to anything.

This time he answered by yelling back, "WHAT?"

"I need to ask you something." That got him to come up here.

He appeared, almost right away.

"What?"

 I held up a finger. I needed to make sure no one heard us. When I finished I spoke.

"Last week when we went to the park. Did you let your guard down that day, even for a second?"

"No. Why?" I sighed. He looked at me curiously.

"I did, and I was wondering why nothing happened yet. Guess I know why now."

"Ya. We're lucky I didn't." I nodded. Yes. Yes we are.

"But..." SHIT!

"But what?" I questioned.

"I did let it down, earlier the next day." SHIT!

"Crap!"

For the next week I've been thinking about what could happen non-stop. It wouldn't leave my mind. It was all I could think of. Sometimes I wanted to go into the middle of the wood, look up at the sky and scream 'WHATEVER THE HELL IS IT THAT IS GOING TO HAPPEN COULD YOU JUST LET IT FUCKEN HAPPEN ALREADY. IT'S REALLY PISSING ME OFF NOT KNOWING WHEN IT'S GOING TO FUCKEN HAPPEN OR WHERE THE HELL IT'S GOING TO HAPPEN!' Would I do that? Yes. Will I? No. Why? Because what it is that could happen, it could happen to my kids and I have to be with them to make sure I can protect them from it. Like every mother would.

Does Edward no about it? No, why? Because he's my husband and he would freak out about it. Making it more of a big deal than it really is, even though that's what I'm doing right now, but it's different coming from me than coming from him. So screw it.

See what I mean, I'm fighting with myself in my head, that's what this whole 'nothings happened yet, but it will' thing is doing to me. I hate it, I hate it, I hate it. It sucks balls.

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