PAST AND PRESENT (COMPLETED)

CHAPTER 18

I DON'T OWN ANY OF THE CHARACTERS MEYERS AND L.J. SMITH DO. I ONLY OWN THE PLOT, THE EVENTS THAT GO WITH IT, SAM, AND ZOEY.

BELLA'S POV

So far everything was great. No interruptions at all. So far. I know that at some point Tanya would do her best to destroy the peace. Which of course has me on edge at all times, Damon's no better than me. We both know that the minute we let our guard down something's going to happen. The thing is we can't tell whether it's good or bad, so we try our best to never let it down. At the same time that is.

I know I said I'd listen and just enjoy the peace while it last, but I'm related to Damon and I'm a Salvatore. Meaning I can never let my guard down. Therefore I can't enjoy the peace, knowing that at any moment something could happen too destroy it.

I know I'm being all negative. I just can't help it, even before Katherine can along I almost never let my guard down. Look at my past and see what happened every time I did. My mom died, Damon went to join the war, Katherine came, both my brother we turned into vampires. Later they were both broken hearted, my father was killed, I was turned into a vampire (not that it was a bad thing), I was kidnapped by Katherine. And the story goes on and on. Every time I let my guard down, even if it's for a millisecond something bad happens. EVERY FUCKING ASS TIME! 

You don't know how badly I wanted to shout all of this at Alice, who kept telling me to chill and relax for once. Of course I didn't, knowing that it would only hurt her. So unlike Damon I shut up and sucked it up. 

Today we were all going to the park to hang out and relax, as Alice put it. I think the real reason, is so that she can shop. Since there's a mall nearby. Whether she goes shopping is her business, but there is no way she's making me go with her. If she somehow does, then I'm bring my husband and my brothers down with me!

I wanted to take my car and Edward didn't want to drive alone, so he was going with me and the kids. Damon, Stefan, and Jake were going in Damon's black Ferrari which made Jake really happy. Alice and Jasper were going in her porsche. Emmett and Rose were going in his jeep. Carlisle and Esme were staying home to have some 'alone time' and none of us want to be there when it starts.

We were all walking to the cars. I had my keys in my hand. I was about to go over to the drivers side when I saw Edward standing there, like he was going to drive.

"What do you think you're doing?" I asked him, slightly cocking my head to the side.

"I'm driving." He answered my. Good thing the kids were already in the car.

"Like hell you are. It's my car."

"So."

"You won't let me drive your car, so you can't drive mine." I told him.

"Fine." 

I smiled. I pushed him away and got in the drivers side. 

We got to the park in a few minutes. Emmett and Damon wanted to race, but I was against it. I wanted to race just as much as they did, but since I had the kids in the car I wouldn't put them in danger in that way. So I told them that if I couldn't, then they sure as hell couldn't either. That made them mad, but I knew they would forgive me sooner or later.

At the park I leaned against a tree, standing. I was watching my kids horsing around. I remember when that was me and my brothers. Of course times were different back then. Women had less rights than they do now, plus those dress where horrible to wear day in and day out. I know that if it wasn't for Damon and Stefan I wouldn't have survived at all.