Chapter Five
YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M FEELING
"Will I forget everything once I wake up?... I'm sure nothing will be left"
*Back to Benjamin's POV*
It had been two weeks since I started going to Bruno's place. Twice or three times a week I had sex with him, the other nights were just like before. Despite of Bruno's ruthless sex, I began to get more and more used to it, and sometimes it even felt well. He didn't hit me anymore, but he sometimes tended to put too much force when holding me and sometimes bit me. Not even once accepted to use a condom, or to cum when he was outside me... but well, I suppose I could deal with it. The thing that still seemed weird was his behavior, sometimes he was a jerk, and was mean with me, but others he treated me like some kid, there was something that did not let him be completely kind towards the other people, not even his closest friends.
Leaving that apart, I had a friend I could talk to, everyday!
Manu had become my one and only friend, I knew almost all about him, and I told him all about me. His boyfriend was something from other world, like he came from a tale. And as an extra info, he told me they hadn't gone all the way yet. When I asked Manu about their sex life, he went all red, gosh it was so cute. The thing is that Manu was still a little afraid of sex, because he had a very bad experience in the past.
But with everything going smoothly, there was something that had to go bad, and it was Snake, one of the girls in the house had told him I was not working well and that I had been slacking with some random boys, something that obviously made him really angry. I mean there was no reason to be mad, I was working in Jupiter as I had to, and I was paying the part of the money I owed him, so why the ruckus?
- He's not just some client, you're friends with him! That's not how this business works you stupid bitch! You have to get a different one, each night, you are a pet for them, not a friend. Does that small brain of your understand?!
- So What? What If I have a frequent client, can't I? He pays well and I'm giving you your stupid money, just leave the fucking hell alone! – I said those words in the middle of my rage, then I froze, hearing my own heartbeat pound in my head. I turned around to walk to my bedroom, but Snake quickly grabbed my arm and started dragging me to his room.
- That's how you repay me all the things I've done for you?! You filthy piece of shit – He gritted his teeth, slapping me hard and making me fall to the ground, to pick me up again and continue our way to his bedroom
- You haven't given me anything, do you think this is a real life? You've destroyed me! Snake, you are the worst thing that has ever happened to me! I hate you! – I said at the verge of tears
He didn't need to reply to my statement to let me know he was furious. He let ourselves into his room and closed the door behind him, looking at me in detail. Snake was a big guy, with green malicious eyes, stained with red, due to the overuse of drugs and cigarettes, he always smelled of Tabaco and that particular smell you can fell when it rains, yes he smelled like the rain somehow, that was the first thing I noticed when I met him.
The day I met Snake was one of those awful days from which you can never recover. I was in the streets, hungry, cold, and terrified. My little brother, Ángel, had been taken away from me and I couldn't find him no matter how hard I tried. That's when he appeared, with that long brown coat, and his cowboy boots; promising he would help me look for my brother, give me a place to live and even a job.
After I accepted all of his "kindness", he told me I had to repay him for everything. Technically, that's how I ended up in Jupiter, trying to pay the debt that started to build day by day. Snake was the first person I had to sleep with and I must say it was utterly scared, not to mention he liked drugging me, just out of "curiosity", to get to know my reactions.
- So Natsu, my stupid, naughty Natsu... It's been a long time since you got a haircut, hasn't it? – I opened my eyes wide, "this cannot be happening to me". He went to the table and grabbed a pair of scissors from the drawer. I started to panic, walking backwards slowly, with my eyes fixed on the pair of scissors he had
- Snake? What are you gonna do?
- What does it look like? I'm giving you a new hairstyle – His smirk grew wide, as he came closer to me and pulled my hair with a lot of strength, then pressed my body to the floor to prevent me from moving
- No! Please, Snake. I'm sorry... please don't – I heard the scissors' movements, cutting here and there my hair, not able to defend myself I just laid there sobbing until he stopped.
From time to time I felt the tip of the instrument cut my skin, hurting my neck, my forehead and my cheeks. After a couple of minutes, he turned me around to see the result of his work, now my eyes were visible for everyone, my guilty, horrendous, blue eyes were exposed.
Snake's hands started to travel around my body, undressing me, I did not move at all, I was still shocked thinking about all the reasons why I preferred having my hair long, that until I felt a needle make its way into my skin. The same old drug he gave me every time we were going to have sex. He said it made me endure more, obviously because at some point of the intercourse I stopped feeling and my mind would imagine crazy things. However once the substance started to slowly wear off, my body showed me he results of all the painful fetishes Snake had. It all felt painful and sore.
After Snake did all he wanted to my body, I fell in a very deep unconsciousness. When I woke up, I was outside Snake's bedroom, in the floor, like some trash bag you leave outside. I couldn't see well 'cause all was blurry, my body felt heavy and it hurt everywhere, I was obviously naked and my clothes were beside me. With all the strength I had left, I dressed and stood up. It was hard to walk, my legs trembled like crazy and I stumbled countless times, falling hard to the floor and having a very difficult time to stand up again; I was not thinking at all, just walking not knowing what I was doing anymore.
I don't know how many minutes or even hours I walked, I just remember the heavy steps I had to give, looking at the floor, trying to hold on a little bit more, with people around glaring at me like I was some estrange creature. Walk more, turn to the left, cross some more streets, not noticing the cars' horns; and then, there I was... In front of the only place I had, where my body unconsciously had gone to...
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Author's Note:
For those who have read up 'till here, even if it's just one person or two... thank you so much! This story is my first and I love it. It would be awsome if somebody else enjoyed it too ^^
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