My Own Private Suicide

Chapter 1

Sara's POV
Millions of people commit suicide in the US every year. I was about to become one of those people...well I hoped I was, anyway. I've struggled with depression since an early age and had my heart set on going to the suicide forest in Japan since I was 17. I finally have enough money to make the trip so today I've decided to say my goodbyes and get going. My last good bye, my best friend and occasional fwb, Billie.
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Billie's POV
I meet Sara at Starbucks expecting to hook up but instead she proceeds to tell me that she's heading to the suicide forest. "You're what?" "Well I finally have enough to money to go and you know how depressed I've been, it's what I want to do. How I want to go out." I can't believe this. "I won't let you go." "Let me? Your not my father, Billie. You can't tell me what to do." "I'm not your father? That's funny you call me daddy an awful lot" I say with a wink. She kicks me under the table and rolls her eyes. "You know what I mean Bill."
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Sara's POV
He thinks about what to say as I watch him tense up. He licks his lips and takes a deep breath. "I'm going with you." Fuck. "No. I don't want you to do that." "Well too bad, you want to go? I'm going too." I sit back and cross my arms, staring at the floor like an upset child giving their parent the silent treatment.
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Billie's POV
"You can cross you're arms and pout as much as you want, little girl. But like it or not, I'm going." She looks at me quickly, then back at the floor. We sit in silence for a few minutes until I touch her hand. When she feels my hand on hers she turns towards me and opens her hands so I can hold them. "Why do you want to go so bad?"
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Sara's POV
"Because." He squeezes my hands. "That's not much of an answer." "Well it's the only one your getting."  "Okay...well, when are you going? Did you buy plane tickets yet?" I shake my head no. "Okay, I'll get them. Come on, let's go." He grabs my hand and takes me outside.
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Billie's POV
Once were outside I let her walk ahead of me a bit. When were closer to her car I grab her arm and pull her towards me. Grabbing her by the hips, I kiss her passionately. We make-out for a few minutes and when my lips leave her's I whisper "did that change your mind at all?". She gazes into my eyes then quickly looks at the ground, let's out a sigh and struggles to get out the next sentence. "No...I'm sorry."
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Sara's POV
I see the disappointment in Billie's face. I give him one last kiss and run my hands down his chest. I faintly see him looking down at me, he quickly pulls me in for a hug and I keep my head rested against his chest. He lets out a sigh and opens my car door for me. "You should get home and rest, I'll get the plane tickets and book a hotel."
I drive myself home and take a relaxing bath while listening to some music. That's when Billie calls. I pick up and he tells me to be ready at 6am to leave for Japan. "I got a flight and found a little hotel to stay at before we take off for the forest." I thank him. "No problem. So...what are you up to?"
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Billie's POV
She giggles. "I'll give you a hint, I'm naked." I secretly have her on speakerphone and Mike and Tré are listening as well. I look at them and laugh quietly "Mmm...well I hope I didn't interrupt anything." She giggles again, that cute little giggle "I'm not doing that, I'm just taking a bath." "Without me?" "When did you turn into such a fuckboy?" "Fuckboy? Is that what they call it now?" "Yep and you are one of them."The guys laugh, not out loud, thank god. "...But I love you anyway." I look down at my phone and smile at the sound of her voice. "I love you too and I wish I was there with you." "You could be...Why don't you come on over and join me?" 
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Sara's POV
"I'd love to baby girl but I have practice with the guys tonight. I'll see you tomorrow though okay?"  I try to hold back my tears and actually succeed. "Okay. Bye Billie." I hang up quickly, put my phone down, plug my nose and submerge myself under the water as I let my tears come streaming out.
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Billie's POV
"You could have went Bill, it's no big deal." Mike says. "Eh, it's okay, I didn't want to." "Didn't want to?" Tré asks tilting his head to the side like a confused puppy. "Yeah..." "Why not?" I shrug my shoulders. Truth is I was kinda upset about this whole thing, I didn't want her to die and I definitely didn't want her to die alone, that's the only reason I was going. "Maybe you shouldn't go with her tomorrow Bill, I mean if she wants to die that's her own decision and you shouldn't go down with her." Mike says ,almost as if he was reading my mind. "I can't just let her go by herself Mike..."
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Mike's POV
"Why? It's not like she's your girlfriend." Billie avoids eye contact with me as he sits down and starts tuning his guitar. "I just can't okay, she's like a girlfriend to me. We're very close and I love her." I stand up, throw my hands in the air and yell "then why don't you just fucking man up and put a label on it?! That's probably part of the reason she hates herself so much, she's not good enough for you to say she is your girlfriend." Billie doesn't know what to say, he just keeps his head down because he knows I'm right.