My Own Private Suicide

Chapter 2

Billie's POV
I think about it and maybe he's right. I mean I guess that being really intimate with someone and having them pretty much use you doesn't make you feel too great about yourself. Mike sits back down and looks at me one last time before turning to Tré. He mumbles something then gets up and walks out of the apartment.
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Tré's POV
"What did he say?" Billie asks quietly. I clear my throat, "he said he needed to get some air and that he'd be back." I can tell Billie is on the verge of tears. He nods, gets up and goes into his room leaving me in the living room alone. Why do we have to fight. Honestly who cares what Billie does...ugh.
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Mike's POV
I go outside and smoke for a few minutes, then I decide to call Sara. Sometimes we talk about how she is and stuff with Billie. When she answers she sounds tired or upset. "Are you doing okay?" "Doing okay? I'm leaving for the suicide forest tomorrow...doesn't exactly scream okay." I nod holding the phone to my ear "sorry." "It's fine...sorry. Thanks for calling and caring...or whatever."
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Sara's POV
I always felt so awkward when we had these kind of talks. "Yeah, no problem. So...what's up with you?" "What?" "Why are you going tomorrow?" "You know why Mike." "Okay, then why with Billie?" There's an awkward silence as I try to figure out what he meant by that. Did he mean why wasn't I going with him or why did I have to go with anyone at all? There's a crack in my voice as I shyly answer "I don't know." He laughs "you don't know?" "That's what I said, Mike." He doesn't say anything and neither do I. I let out more tears and try to let out the next sentence without sounding upset, which is unsuccessful. "Guess this is the last time we're ever going to talk."
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Mike's POV
I hear her getting choked up and start getting a little choked up as well. "Don't be silly, I'm driving you and Billie to the airport in the morning...ill see you then and I want a big hug before you go." She sniffles "Okay." I wipe my tears and quickly say "I'll see you in the morning."
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Sara's POV
"Okay, see ya Mike." He hangs up and I slowly hang up afterwards. I pack the rest of my things, climb into bed by myself and get under the covers. Before I know it my alarms going off and I have to get ready. I put on some jeans and a 21st Century Breakdown sweatshirt, make some coffee,take my things down to the lobby and leave my keys since I won't be needing the apartment anymore. I sit down with my coffee and wait for Mike and Billie to pull up.
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Mike's POV
I roll out of bed, slip on some sweatpants and make sure Billie is up and ready to go along with Tré. Sure enough he is. "Ready to drive me?" "Yeah, come on." Tré and I help him with his things and we hop in the car. As we drive I hold back my tears having what could be my last conversation with my best friend. "Dude, please just stay safe out there and come home." "I'll try, Mike. But if I die...you guys were my best friends and being in Green Day with you guys was....I don't even know how to put it. I just know I wouldn't change it for the world."
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Billie's POV
I hope I make it out alive. I don't want to go in there but I won't let her go alone. When we pull up to her apartment she comes walking out with her stuff with earbuds in. I get out of the car to help her and can hear Metallica blasting through them. She takes the left earbud out so she can hear me and I take one of her bags. "Thanks." She turns down the music a bit and follows me over to the trunk to put her other bag in. "Are you all set?" She nods. I look at her sweatshirt and smile. "Remember when I gave you that?" She nods and bites her bottom lip. "How could I forget? It was the first night we were together." My eyes water up a bit and pull her in for a hug, gently kissing her on the forehead.
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Sara's POV
I close my eyes as he kisses me. He pulls away and closes the trunk. Taking my hand he leads me to the car and opens the door for me. He gestures towards the car with his hand "Ladies first." I get in behind Mike and Billie sits next to me behind Tré. Mike's eyes meet mine in the rear view mirror. "Hey, Sara." "Hey."
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Mike's POV
She gives me a quick smile then looks down at her phone for the rest of the ride. When I get to the airport Tré stays with the car and I help them with their things then say goodbye to each of them individually. First I say goodbye to Billie. "When you get to the forest with her try to talk her out of it." Billie nods "I will, that's what I was planning to do. And if I can't talk her out of it there's counselors there that can try...ill try my best to come home Mike." We hug each other tightly, I didn't want to let go but eventually I had to.
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Sara's POV
Mike says goodbye to me next. He pulls me to the side away from Billie and hugs me tight, whispering something in my ear. "Please...think about this some more, if you still want to do it fine but I would miss you..." There's a pause and a sniffle "Tré would miss you and above all Billie would miss you". I don't say anything. I hug him back tightly, kiss his cheek and wave goodbye as I take Billie's hand and board the flight.