My Own Private Suicide

Chapter 5

Sara's POV
Billie keeps holding onto my hand as he steps over the chain. We continue walking into the forest and run into the trail of strings people have left behind. Some people come in and use string by tying it to a tree so that they can find their way back if they choose to do so. He stops me for a second to tie a string to a tree. "What are you doing?" "Leaving a string trail so we can get out if you change your mind." "I'm not going to change my mind though so...yaknow, kinda don't need that." After he ties a knot we keep on walking as he trails the string behind him. "You know you'll run out eventually right?" "Yeah, but at least we'll have a sting to follow." "You mean with the million other strings that are already hanging here? Yeah, thank god." I say sarcastically.
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Billie's POV
We walk through until we start losing light. I pick a spot and start setting up the tent I brought. "What are you doing?" "Um...setting up a tent, why?" She sighs. "Bringing a tent shows you aren't completely certain that you want to die." I nod "okay, well maybe I'm not." She sighs again. "Admit it your scared" she gives me the death stare "no I'm not" "yeah well who knows what to believe you lied about the pregnancy thing...could be lying right now too." She doesn't know what to say. She takes off her backpack and starts setting up a fire. A few minutes later the tent is set up and the fire is started.
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Sara's POV
He joins me next to the fire, wrapping a blanket around both of us as he sits down. "Thanks." "Mhmm, here's a granola bar if you want one." I take it from his hand and put it down next to me. "Can I ask you something?" I nod, quietly looking down at my finger nails that I'm currently scrapping my nail polish off of, something I do when I'm nervous. "What happened...how we're you raped?" Ugh. "Well...I've never told anyone this. My best friend at the time, her name was Marnie. She told me she was getting married and wanted me to be her maid of honor, of course I said yes...she wanted me to hang out with her husband to get to know him. I agreed and he invited me over one night when Marnie was out with her parents planning some wedding stuff."
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Billie's POV
She starts getting choked up. "I walked in and he offered me a drink...next thing I know I'm tied to a bed and he's inside of me." I put my arm around her and hold her close to me. "Then after that I didn't know when or how to tell Marnie what he did, I avoided him as much as I could. On the day of the wedding he cornered me and told me to keep my mouth shut about everything that happened....Marnie heard me crying in the bathroom and I told her what he had done." She stops and dries some of her tears. "What did she say?" "She didn't believe any of it she got really upset and threw me out for making it up for attention because she thought he would never do something like that, but he did...I wouldn't lie about something that serious." She was so upset remembering all this that she was shaking so I knew this wasn't a lie. "If I could make it all go away I would, I'm so sorry...guys are fucking dicks."
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Sara's POV
I lean my head on his shoulder and let out all my tears. "Yeah, they are." After I calm down a bit we start making out and I slip my hand down his pants. Usually he gets hard almost immediately. I look at him and start jokingly singing "Why can't you get it up? Why can't you get it up?" From the Mindless Self Indulgence song "Get it Up." He laughs. "I don't know, I guess I'm a little...scared out here." "
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Billie's POV
She gets on my lap, straddling me she kisses me and says "Aww you poor thing." She starts slowly moving her kisses to my neck. Suddenly she's startled by something and falls backwards off of my lap, just missing the fire. "Oh shit." I crouch down next to her and put my hand behind her back. "Are you okay? What happened?". She stares past me at something, I look but don't see anything. "What? What is it?"
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Sara's POV
I can hardly hear Billie, I know he's talking to me but it's like I have earmuffs over my ears making it hard to hear. I see a dark shadow of a man, I hear it calling my name. I don't know what it wants. Suddenly it disappears and I can hear Billie more clearly. "What's wrong?" I look at him, I've never seen him this freaked out. "I...I just saw something...it's gone now." He helps me up. "Let's try to get some sleep." "Sleep? In this place, I don't think so Bill."
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Billie's POV
I let her climb into the tent before me, once she's in and slips under the sleeping bag I get in too. She slides closer to me and puts her head on my chest. I close my eyes and try to fall asleep but can't due to the fact Sara is slipping her hand down my pants and kissing my neck. I start to get hard so she gets on top of me and slips me inside of her. She's so wet and I can't help but moan.
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Sara's POV
When he moans I smile and start moving my hips. He starts bucking his hips and I moan, suddenly he stops and tells me to stop. "Why?" "I hear something moving out there." I scoff and keep going. "No seriously Sara, stop" he throws me off of him and peaks his head out of the tent.
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Billie's POV
I look around but don't see anything so I go back in the tent. I look at Sara. She's covered herself up in a sheet, holding her arm and has tears in her eyes. "What? Did I hurt you?" "Yeah...kinda, you threw me right off of you like I was garbage." I scoot closer and try to put my arms around her. She shakes her head and pulls away, full on crying. "Look...I didn't mean to hurt you...you wouldn't stop and I got frustrated. Okay? I'm sorry, it won't happen again." I kiss her forehead and try to look at her arm. She snatches it away and turns on her side, closing her eyes. I sigh and slip on my sweatpants. I turn on my side facing away from her and rest my head on my pillow.

TO BE CONTINUED.....