Adyrin's diary thingy

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This will probably become a series.. I don't know tbh

Just to lay down some information about my life and stuff?

Chinese New Year is in two weeks, which means finally I'LL GET A BREAK FROM SCHOOL

FINALLLY

I like going to school, but the reason used to be is because ''I'll get to meet my awesome buddies'' or something like that

But honestly, now I don't feel like it.

Ever since I've transferred to my new school, I've been having quite some emotional issues

Like I tend to overthink and think that I'm practically invisible to everyone else there, and a certain subject is making me really doubt myself if I even fit to be in this grade, and this school.

I'm getting really bad at maths, because I am really slow when processing those complex equations and formulas in my brain.

Algebra is already holding me by the neck know, and then there's the Pythagoras Theorem.. Construction using the compass and etc..

I honestly don't know anymore, I really miss my old school, my real friends

Okay, so we have my homework in line, and don't even get me started about my so called 'friends'

So, let me put you in this situation. There are 20 boys in the class, and only 6 girls, how would you react?

Some of you would probably say ''I'll befriend the girls and then talk to the boys'', ''Stick with the girls'' or even ''Who cares about the girls? Talk to the boysss!!!''

I'm stuck with the 'stick to the girls' option, I didn't know how I ended up there.. probably because I was shy as fuck and it didn't help.

So now after so many months, you find the seemingly 'other side' of the girls.

I like to address them as 'two-faced' in my opinion, cause they act all sweet and nice in front of you and I get a feeling that they talk shit behind your back when you're not around.

I used to have this friend, lets call her Rin. She's quiet, and nice actually. We both don't like the girl, and lets pretend her name is Miku //don't get angry at me Vocaloid fans I love Rin&Miku kkk D:

So Rin and I used to talk about Miku, how she overreacts and how we don't like her. We talked, and we both wanted to find our ways out from dealing with Miku. So we came up with a conclusion, and it was to bond with the boys.

Then I met more male friends, and we talked random and weird things throughout the days, chatted on social media etc. Rin also seemed to have some conversation with the boys, but we talked to different people so.. yeah

By the time we got back together, Rin seemed to changed. She was still quiet, yes. But now she responds to everything Miku says, and follows her around like a lost puppy. She used to distance herself from Miku before, following another friend who sat like miles away from us.

Now when I talk to her, she pretends she's staring off a distance and doesn't hear me. When I repeat the question again, she'll like 'snap out' of it and be like 'huuh?' to me.

I mean like, we're only standing not more than 10 cm away from each other and you 'huh' me?

And this is why, I have serious friendship issues.

If you all would like to know more, hit me up in the comments below or send a message. Idk lol, or just check out my new book 'Tracing Sidelines' cause I'll be basing it off my real-life experiences :D