It was the day of graduation. I'm already in my yellow cape and can't wait to finally be done with freaking high school. First gear was horrible. Second was ok. Third was well ok too. And forth finally the end.
I stand by my locker getting the stuff out and stuffing them in my backpack. What didn't fit I just threw away. Who cares im done with school.
Someone puts their hand sober my eyes from behind. I turn and feel James smack his lips against mine.
James: ready for a free life
Me: heck yeah
He grabs my hand and we walk outside where the ceremony is held.
Then our principal Mr . Vince talks for about 30 minutes and we throw out hat's in the air.
Everyone cheers and is happy their done with high school.
I jump into James's arms and he spins around in circles. Then we kiss.
Feels good. Now I'll decide if I want to go to college.
By the way James is a year younger then me. He's 18 im 19. Most of my friends are actually 18. But wathever.
I hop on the back of James's motorcycle and off he goes. I love ridding it. It makes me feel so free.
We get to my place. I used to live with my parents but they moved away and I didn't want to come with them so now I live in their old house. See them about 1 a year.
So back to me and James arriving at my place.
We walk inside.
James: so what do you want to do
Me: well how about we go to my bedroom.
I playfully run up the stairs and jump onto my bed.
He lays down next to me and pulls me towards him.
We start kissing. First soft then harder.
He glides his hands down and up my body. I then start taking of his shirt.
Once his shirt is off he removes mine and we continue kissing.
I then sit on top of him. We still kiss.
A while later he starts taking off my pants. Then touches my body agian.
His pants are also gone after a bit.
Now we lay there kissing in nothing but our under ware........
We now lay in our bare skin under the blanket.
But something doesn't feel right. I get up and walk to the bathroom. I pee. Also get in a bra and some panties. When I come back out he is also back in his boxers.
Me: hey did it feel any different to you this time
James: no why
Me: it just feels weard. Like something happened.
James: what do you mean
Me: ah, nothing
We walk downstairs and watch a movie.
Two weeks later I wake up and run to the bathroom and empty myself out. Throwing up, for no reason at all.
I'm pretty sure I didn't have anything to drink lately and I didn't eat anything unusual eather.
After I feel better I lay back in bed.
I think for a moment. What if I'm pregnant!!!
No that can't be. James was wearing a condom.
I start panicking. Get in some pants and and hoodie and drive to the nearest gas station.
I grab two different pregnancy tests and pay.
At home I pee on the first. Then put it aside without looking at it yet.
Do the second one also and then grab both of them and sit down on my bed.
I take a deep breath and look at them.
OMG both of them show positive.
Oh shit what am I gonna do. What if James will break up with me.
What is he gonna do. Am I even gonna keep the child?
I freak out.
Calling james:
Me: ah hey. I need to tell you something
James: what is it Babe
I can't tell him.
Me: do you mind grabbing me some chips from the store
James: no of course not
I hang up.
There is no way I can tell him. I dont even know if I can tell anyone.
Mom would totally freak. Jes will probably break up with me. Becky tell everyone. Of course only by mistake.
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Three weeks later I decide to go to a doctor. To make sure I'm really pregnant or If those test are just so cheap they can't give a straight answer.
I'm currently sitting in the waiting room. By every minute I get more nervous.
Nurse: Mrs. Joy the doctor is ready for you.
I get up and follow the nurse into a room.
Nurse: he will be right with you
Me: ok
Three minutes later a pretty young man opens the door. Maybe his early 30.
Doctor: hello Ms. Joy what can I do for you today
Me: um I might be pregnant and just want see if I'm right.
Doctor: 19 years old I see. Was it planned.
Me: no
Doctor: ok if you could please take your shirt of and lay down.
I do so. He then picks up a tube.
Doctor: this might be a bit cold.
He aplis it on my stomach. Then takes a machine thing and slowly runs it over it. I look up at the screen.
Doctor: well even though it wasn't planned congratulations.
I don't say a word. Just stare at rhett screen with a little white dot on it. My baby.
After I got dressed and left I drive home. There I sit and cry. I didn't want to be pregnant. Not until I was married or like 25.
Agh this is bad.
I decide to just go with it and wear hoodies as he stomach grows. Then just pretend go on vacation the last couple months. Then give birth and then, then......
What do I do with the baby. Will I want to keep it. Or give it away.
I don't have a clue.
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