Week three of being home. It is so much work. Every 1-3 hours Kye is hungry or he has a loaded dipper. Like what the heck is wrong with babies.
I do like that James has been helping out a lot. Sometimes giving me a break.
He has come over more now sometimes even staying the night multiple times.
The nights he stays are usually the ones he gets up and gets Kye.
I'm still breastfeeding but am planning on stopping maybe after a couple of months. I've actually already started with the bottles but breastfeeding is still maturity.
I hear a too familiar sound coming from downstairs. I get up from a short break and walk downstairs to see what the king of the castle needs this time.
He's laying in his crypt and the pacifier not in reach. I give it back to him and he's quite. Thank god.
My head hurts and I take some medicine. Then sit on the couch and read a magazine.
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Door: Ding dong
I run to the door and open. The face I see is not who I was expecting.
Mom was standing in the door way looking at me.
Mom: so how are we doing
Me: go-good what are you doing here
Mom: well I heard you had some news
Ok who was so pathetic and tell her about Kye ?!?
Me: a-ahm yes indeed there is something I've been hiding from y-you and some other people. But now if I show you promise not to freak.
Mom: well it certainly depends on what now child
Me: mom just promise
Mom: ok let me see.
I walk down the hallway where he was currently playing in his play pen. I pick him up and walk back down the hall into the living room.
Mom looks with shock, suprise, fear. I don't even know what kind of expression that was.
Mom: what in the world is that or who's is that.
Me: it's mine and James's
Mom looked at me with disappointment.
Mom: Jessy your 19 years old. I've never even meet this James. WHAT WHERE YOU THINKING!
Me: mom you promised you wouldn't get mad
Mom: well sorry I broke it now explain.
Me: me and James sleept together and somehow the condom broke.
I got pregnant he's 1 and a half months old.
Mom: what do you mean it broke. You shouldn't even have been sleeping with this boy.
Me: mom he's not just any boy he's the love of my life and the father of my son. Now I'm sorry not everything happened like you had it planned out but guess what, deal with it!!!
Mom: I am not being talked to in such a tone young lady.
She picked up her purse and ran out the door with a loud slam behind her. Kye started crying.
I cradled him in my arms until he has calmed down. Then layed him next to me on the couch and stared sobbing.
Why couldn't she just except it. It's her grandchild. Why is she so ungrateful for what she still has.
I curl up into a blanket and keep on crying.
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It's now a Saturday after mom's visit.
Becky agreed on babysitting so that me and James can have some alone time.
She comes a little early and i explain to her again how his schedule goes.
I have some frozen milk ready In the freezer.
We drive to his house, or his parents house. I'm ok with it. They already know about Kye and clearly took it better than my mom.
We get there and go to his room and snuggle together on his bed and start watching a movie.
Once it finished he drives me back home.
James: I really enjoyed spending some alone time with you today
Me: me too. I love you
James: love you too. Bye
He drives off. I enter the house and find Becky sitting on the couch with Kye in her arms sleeping.
Me: thanks sk much for watching him.
Becky: no problem any time.
Me: thanks
She leaves and im alone with him.
He continues sleeping until about midnight. Then I take him out of his he'd feed him check to see if he has a dirty dipper and put him back to bed.
Me: good night baby
I head back to my own bed send sleep until the next hungry baby.
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