Something tells me you will-Remember me

P.S REMEMBER ME,SIS

"Hey you dare touch my things!"She yelled.So did I.

"I will stupid"and she was on top of me clutching my throat with her hands and as if I did not.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                               This was my usual life with her.She was my sister.Our relationship was like our fathers were brothers and we are indirectly sisters but directly we were in WWF (World Wrestling Federation)conditions.There was not even a single moment we wasted without not fighting even for a small piece of paper.

 Now I am writing and remembering about our memories and the things we shared together,I am crying.Oh..how I miss her smile her scolding and her saying me hello.It saddens me a lot in a indescribable way.It literally tears me up now thinking about it.

I remember the time we learned the word blood group we went on asking every single soul in our family about their blood group and that we both sister had the same category of blood group and our whole family had something different.We seemed so very happy.We shared the same blood type.

    It was I who destroyed the sweet dream we shared .The thing I did shattered us apart.We could not mend it any more as we never had a chance to do that.We were so very much drifted apart even God 's wish could not join us until we wished for .She did, I did not thinking the new dream I was chasing would give me more pleasure that this .

                      Actually my mom 's relative died and it happened that my mom inherited the property and she decided to live there so that she can travel to her work place more swiftly and she would not feel sick as she had a gall bladder operation and she was really sick and she sometimes stressed out and she never understood that.So she could not live alone she thought she could but seriously she could not.That was a serious discussion and I was the one who was left to decide what to do as if I agreed to that our family will move out or my mom will stay with my grand ma  and come home on weekends.

          So...I choose to live with my family to that place and so we did shifted.I never even gave second thoughts to what did I do.I destroyed a healthy family.That was all my fault and I did not realise until like four five months when the spaces were like killing me.I live in the farthest of South and she lives in the farthest North of our city.

     What ever I do, what ever I sing I could not do it with a full heart I always felt the stab in my heart that was painful.

 One day in school I was in a elocution competition and competitor came from different schools.I had to say a poem called "Always you"and in the middle of my saying I broke down in front of everyone .It reminded me of her so much ,but I did not pause to cry I continued .Every one was starring at me.They should as I was a really selfish creature.I never said this thing to anyone as it was not worth to share as I was so much shameful . 

It could not call her as I thought she was angry with me or she probably forgot me or something to annoyed with.

  I also remember the last day.I was going to see a movie and I did not even wait to say a hearty good bye or at least say that I wont return any more.......

                                                Well it has now been like nearly eleven months.I do not call her or even speak to her.I am afraid of what she will say or do or comment.I bet she has replaced me for some one else worth it but to be honest I could not.I am also very sure that I never can to that and go and hurt her so much eve she would not care.We have become so very separated.I mean I also think that I do not care any more but still I linger on that thought like forever and yes I am a open mouthed and spill everything like ink.I could not stay any more to reveal the world that I miss her so much her that even this short thing would seem so small in front of her...

                          I just wanted to say sorry and not this small apology contain all the pain that I felt all the time storing inside me thinking about .I would even jump off a cliff to correct the mistakes I made and to be very precise hilarious mistakes.Please do forgive me and we will be together as always again .I promise this to you....