the bad boy fixed me.

 i walked down the compacted hall full of twit bitch idiots and tall jock douche bags reaching my locker to see the same thing i see everyday  it had been the same for two years big black letters D.I.E i tried to push it out of my mind but they wouldnt let me everyday i relived june 23rd because of those three little letters everyday i found my self wondering why im here why i keep forgetting to drown or shoot or hang myself 

SLUT! they shouted at me as i walked by they threw books at my head my back i cringed in pain holding the tears back again i walked a faster pace almost running to class if not for these halls filled with smiles and laughter at the sight at me i ran into the closest bathroom i could find slamming the stall door shut i punched the walls crying 

i fell to the ground pulling my razor out once again i slit my arm not emotion the numbness kicked in i felt nothing to that cut i made it quick and deep i must of sat there for hours it felt like suddenly the bathroom door opened

hello? a deep voice said ,it was a boy in the girls bathroom i kept silent i didnt answer he knew i was there though and i knew it too i noticed my blood had trailed down the tile pieces in the floor

suddenly there was a slam on the door OPEN THIS UP NOW!he said anger and sadness in his voice, i got up slowly and opened the door only to find the one boy n the whole school i would have never thought to care about anyone or to be angered by the presence of there ways to cope 

jared eli matherson our school bad boy his tanned chiseled features made me breathless his strong hands grabbed my wrist,  vidia why would you do this to yourself? , he knew my name jared knew my name he looked sad as if he cared so much for me why would he

because i can i said silently he looked me in the eyes ,you should never hurt yourself promise me you wont ever do this again, what right do you have to tell me what i can and cant do i said in a harsh tone  you dont know me im not anything to you

he looked down ,i.....im sorry he said but i want to help you 

well you cant i cant be saved its to late i said with tears coming down my face,his warm hands caressed me face wiping away the tears with his thumbs, dont cry please dont cry he smiled at me right then i saw his eyes filled with hope but i could barely see it there isnt hope for me i pushed him away runnig out the bathroom towards my painted car in those letters ..... those three little letters

i opened the door locked my car and cried i sat there for a longtime before i drove home,i couldnt give jared what he wanted i could give him me.... my happiness.........

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