the bad boy fixed me.

part three (edited)

i sat down on my bed reliving every second and emotion of that moment completely forgetting about everything else that happened that day. his lips were soft and smooth the way they moved in motion with mine i smiled at the thought the biggest smile iv ever had. nothing consumed but love at that moment not my locker or june 23rd or everyone at school everything was just perfect. just as i was perfectly happy i faded to normal.

wait what am i saying, he will never kiss me again he was just trying to get my attention off the subject. of coarse there was nothing special about that kiss it was a passing thing tomorrow everything will be back to the way it was. we wont ever kiss again he will probably just be my friend trying to take care of me and that all. why would i get so worked up over something like that im so stupid. i got under the covers and went into a deep sleep

vidia.. vidia..., jared? how the hell did you get in my house how did you even find my house? hi vidia your mom let me in i came to say goodmorning. he leaned down and just as i thought his lips were for mine they collided with my forhead. i should of known i muttered, what? oh nothing what are you doing here again?

i came to ask you a question,his bottom lip started to tremble and his eyes filled with fear. will you go out with me?, i blushed you mean on a date? urm i guess..... yea a date will you?, i thought for a moment jared wants to go on a date with me but why when would he ever want to go out with me the question sat at the back of my mind barely giving me an inch of ideal answers finally it occured to me   

he looked like a perfect chiseled statue, an answer would be nice he said sounding like a 14 year old child by his voice crack. i giggled , yes jared i will go on a date with you. his lips curled into a smirk leaning in i could smell his cologne it smelled of sweat mixed with mist after it rained i breathed in his scent so heavily my eyes rolled back i could fall asleep beside him my head nuzzled in the crook of hid neck and chest.

when his lips smashed onto mine so passionately we moved in motion his tongue licked the bottom of my lip playfully making me quiver with desire i wanted more, leaning in to him he fell back as i feel on top still our lips dancing to a never ending beat. i whish it would never end he made me forget all the bad things i just saw the good.  when he pushed me off stopping in his tracks.

im sorry i said, no you did nothing wrong it just..... i want to take you out im not that guy anymore i dont want to use you . i had completely let the fact he has screwed half the girls in school surpass me forgetting how much of a player he was. my face reddened anger burned up inside of me. but before i could say anything he had wanted to stop to change for me or was it a lie?. 

is that what i am a toy a game for you? oh ya lets mess with the school freak get her to hate herself more is that it!. no.. i just dont want to, oh save it i so stupid your probably just trying to get me in bed arnt you?....... ARNT YOU? no it more then that vidia im trying to change i like you why do you make everything a constant fight why do you push everyone away  yea i use to play girs but this was different your diffrent!

jared stormed out of the room before i had the chance to say a word. i heard my front door slam and  his car started up. i looked out my window his car just sat in my driveway him in it. he just sat there , "what the hell is he doing?" , "what the hell is who doing?" my mom started in, "oh n....no one mom just" "just the boy down stairs she added in with a smile". is he your boyfr" "no! well yes but no he my friend well he was"

"oh well it is non of my bisness il just leave it alone" she stated humming out of the room. when i looked back out the window he was gone. my stomach suddenly had a feeling of guilt turning upside down. i didnt know what to do so i did the only thing that distracted me. i cut.

i love this chapter!

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-nova