A Day To Remember.......

For Her

Jeremy's P.O.V

"Thanks for this..I really needed it.." I whispered

"No problem.." I got a kiss, "See you later" I said and walked off.

What is wrong with me..she'll never really love me. I want her to but I don't want to force her into it. She means so much to me..so quickly. But after what I've done, does it show that I really do love her? I don't know. I can't trust my feelings anymore. Maybe...I'm meant to be alone..

I returned to a little motel I rented and just slammed my body on the bed.

"Ughhhh why can't anything go right? Why can't I just be happy.."

There was a sudden knock on the door. I was cautious and looked through the window a bit

"Jeremy! I know you're in there! Come out, we need to talk!"

It's Cynthia.

I slowly opened the door, "What do you want? Shouldn't you be at the tour..?" I asked

"You should be as well, but I'm not going back without you. Now open this door" she said

"No" I closed the door but it wouldn't close. I look to see Cynthia's foot holding it back.

"I'm not gonna ask you again" she leans in. "Open the fuckin door.." She said sternly. I didn't hesitate this time and widely open the door, "C-come in!" Cynthia smiled, "Thanks!" She said cheerfully and walked in. I sighed, "why me?"

As I closed the door she began to speak, "Look, it's a shame that you and Karen can't be together cause she loves two people. But you have to understand that she's trying her best to make herself happy and to find what she wants. And I know she wants you"

I scoffed, "bullshit...she doesn't want me. She wants..." I walked to the bed and laid there, "Tony.."

"Yes that might be true but, if she really wanted Tony, then tell me why she leaves him for you. That's all she's ever done, right?" She said

"True..but then she leaves me again" I whispered

"Listen.." Cynthia sits next to me, "Karen needs you. I know she's not that kind of person to jump back and forth to people, she really does love and care about you. You just need to trust her. Put your faith in her. She's always wanted you to herself . There's trouble going on with her and YOU need to help her. You can't leave her without saying goodbye, especially forever. Do you not know how much that'll kill her if you never came back?"

"Why bother!" I got up and broke class on the table. "She has Tony!! I'm just..just a second choice.."

"That may be true but.." Cynthia grabbed my hand, "Be her last.." She whispered. I looked into her eyes, she's right.

"Cmon, let's head back"

*Later that day*

*On the phone w/Cynthia*

"What do you do?!" I asked

"Just wait till she gets there, you'll be fine, oh! I gotta go! Don't blow it!!"
She hung up

Fuck I hope she knows what she's doing..

I waited there in Karen's room patiently

Suddenly I heard a door slam

It's her! Okay don't freak out..just breathe...

I heard the door open, "Tony you have no idea how much-"

My heart sank

"Jeremy.."

"I should've known.." I stood up, "I knew I never should've came back.."

"N-never..?" She questioned.

"Out of my way.." I pushed Karen, she held onto my arm, keeping me from leaving the room

"Please..stay.." She whispered

"Why should I? I don't matter. You were expecting Tony.." I whispered

Karen's grip harden, "Do you not know...how worried I was..."

I stayed quiet..shocked that Karen was worried

"I was..so worried.." She cried, "All I could focus on was you...and Tony.."

I tugged my arm, "I don't care! It's all about Tony, I'm just a second choice!" Karen pulled me into the room again and locked the door

"Do you not understand how worried I was?! I could've LOST YOU! Do you really think I would keep going in life without you..??" She cried grabbing my hand

"...like I said...you have Tony..I'm just a second choice....and that's all I'll ever be..." I whispered, tugging my hand away

"I may have Tony..but I want you...Jeremy, YOU make me happy..you're everything I asked for.."

"Are you delusional??" I asked

"What..? No..-"

"Then why me, why not Tony, or Vic, or Jaime? Anyone else but me..you would've been better off.."

"And watch it destroy you from the inside..? I think not" Karen said

"It's what you want isn't it?!" I yelled. "No..it's not! You really think I would want to hurt someone that way?" She asked

"You're doing that now aren't you?!" I yelled

"LOOK...." She yelled, then cleared her throat, "Look..I want to be happy, and I know I'll be happy with you. I won't let anything get in our way-"

"You let Tony get in the way" I pointed out

"I didn't know what I wanted then, but I do now" she said

I scoffed, "And what's that" I looked away

Suddenly I felt her hands intertwining with mine, "You.." She smiled

Her touch...it's so soft. And her eyes...just so beautiful, I get lost and can't look away. And our hands...it's like they fit perfect with each other.

"Please..." She whispered.

"Be my only one.." She kissed me.

Her lips..so soft and taste heavenly....

We pulled away..

"I will..."

I kissed her again...

I'm not doing this for me..but for her...

I WILL be her last...