5sos One shots (boyxboy)

Sad Ending (secret pairing)

listen to this song while reading.

All Luke could do was cry his eyes out while watching the wooden coffin get lowered into the hole, his heart clenching thinking about that he was the cause of his own tears. That he should've done more to save him, he could've helped him to try and stay strong. But, all Luke could seem to do was hold the boy tightly in his arms, whispering soft words into the boys ear, hoping it would calm the boy, and maybe, just maybe, make the boy his mind able to put the voices out for good.

As Luke stares at the red roses being thrown into the hole, the blond closes his eyes as he lets memories fill his mind, hoping that they would stay there forever even though Luke knew, that no matter how hard he would try, the memory of the boy he loves so dearly will fade into nothingness at some point.

''Luke! Look what I found!'' The blond whipped his head around to see his boyfriend standing there, a smile on his face as he held out a fragile hand, signing that the blond should grab it and follow him, so Luke did. He grabbed the hand that was reached out to him, and ran after his giggling boyfriend, following him to the water and standing still as the other boy did.

''That shell is in the form of a heart, Lukey!'' His boyfriend yelped, grabbing it and pushing it in Luke's hands. ''For me?'' He asked, looking at his boyfriend with one of the biggest smiles he could manage, hoping that the happiness that flowed trough his boyfriends body at the moment wouldn't fade.

But deep down, Luke knew better than to give himself false hope.

Luke saw the last bit of the coffin, he turned his head. What he saw was heart breaking. The loved ones of the person he loved so dear were all standing there, crying, some even sobbing their eyes out as they watched the last piece of the once energized and happy boy they had, disappear into the earth forever.

Luke had so much planned for the two of them when they reached their two year anniversary. They would graduate college together, they would try and set up a record label together and be happy, maybe a kid or two and be a family. Luke had prayed night in night out, even though he didn't believe in any god, that those plans would become reality.

But of course, life hates Luke, as it has always done. The blue eyed boy lost his parents at a young age, being put in foster homes straight away. He pushed the sadness away, his broken heart couldn't be fixed so Luke did what any four year old would do after losing his parents. Cry once, maybe twice, and go on, not really understanding what death actually meant.

But, at the age of thirteen Luke knew exactly what it meant. His brother, Jack, took his own life when Luke was thirteen, and because of that, Luke learned what death exactly meant. Your loved ones get ripped out of your life, not coming back any time soon. They would only exist in his mind, their lives would carry on because Luke would dream, fantasize about them.

It wasn't until Luke met his special boy that he smiled again, he laughed, he felt like his body wasn't just moving, but he was actually living.

But then, bad luck struck him again. His favourite boy on the planet moved schools, making it impossible for Luke to protect him from bullies or anything like that. And that happened, his special boy got bullied on the daily, his parents divorcing because of the trouble they had with their kid, his mom fought her ass of to get custody over her son.

That was four years ago. As soon as his boy graduated, Luke made sure he could follow online school and said goodbye to his foster family that he lived with at the time, and followed his boy.

''I'm sorry..'' Luke whispers, to no one in particular as dirt gets thrown onto the coffin. ''It's not your fault, Luke..'' Luke turns his head as he looks his boyfriend's mother in the eye, shaking his head. ''It is, I could've helped him. I should have forced him into some sort of therapy, make him happy again.'' Luke wipes away his tears.

''You did what you could, thank you Luke. For making the last few years that my son wanted to live full of love.'' Luke nodded, and hugged the tiny woman. ''Luke.. he told me to give you this when he wasn't there anymore to do it himself, so here you go. I want you to go home, and read it when you are settled on your couch, yeah?'' Luke nodded, before breaking out into sobs again.

''I miss him so much.'' He whispered, and the woman nodded. ''I do too, Luke, I do too.'' Luke just nodded, his vision blurry because of his tears. He just turned around and left the graveyard, not wanting to be there any longer.

As Luke sat down in his dorm room, he decided to open the letter he received from his boy's mother, and sighed as he opened it.

Dear Lukey,

By the time you are reading this letter, I'll probably be gone. I don't know if that is when I died naturally, or something else. I probably took my own life, didn't i?

If I did, I want to say sorry to you Luke. You tried so hard to make me the happy boy I once was again, but for some reason, I couldn't do it. Whenever I saw parents walking around with their kids, a small piece of me would break because I knew my dad wouldn't want that. Whenever I heard that you had a fight with your foster dad again, I'd hope I would have a fight with my dad over the fact that I wanted to go to a party, not because of the fact he doesn't want to see me, even though the law says I have to see him at least once a year.

I wish it was all easier Luke. I really wished I could've stayed with you and fulfil your dreams of becoming a family one day with our own record label. You pictured it all so beautiful, and I found myself hoping that it would actually happen.

But, I never saw myself with you. I always saw another boy with you, with kids and driving to your record label. It wasn't ever me. It could've never been me, I realized after awhile. At some point, I thought that you would get sick of me, that you would leave me like everyone else had done.

But you never did. You kissed my scars, you helped me out of bed in the mornings when I didn't want to. You gave me energy to live for such a long time, but at one point, your energy became less and less usable. I needed more fuel, but I couldn't find it. I slipped back into the hole you managed me to get out, for at least half of it. You managed to make me smile on some days, managed to make me feel once again.

I could never thank you enough for that.

I don't want you to kill yourself because of me, alright? I want you to chase your dreams and become successful. I want you to get married and have kids, and I want you to own your own record label. I don't want you to forget me, I want you to live on with the memories we made inside of your heart, where I will be as well.

Because I will always be there. If you look up at the stars at night, you will see me. I will be looking down on you until you come up here yourself, and ill be able to see you once again. I will be happy up there Luke, we both will.

I just hope, for the love of god, that you listen to me for once and stay alive.

I love you,

Yours sincerely,

Calum Hood.

m sorry for the sadness..