"Alright"

Chapter 5

After sunday.. A day of wondering why he kissed me and went off on me like that. It wasnt right. I didnt know to think. I didnt know what to do. I didnt know what to feel. It was like i was, numb, of pain, of stress, of thoughts going around in my head... Of him. And then there came a day called monday. When we all had to go to school. That would mean i would have to see him. Maybe i should try and keep my distance and avoid him. Or maybe i should do the complete opposite. I decided to avoid him. But if he decided to talk to me i wouldnt mind.. Maybe a little.
I was walking into science and i see him in his seat. I try my best not to look at him. Too late. He looks at me and smiles and waves with his beautiful, beautiful blue eyes. His swooshy dirty blonde hair and perfect smile. I smile back. Why though? why does he just act like nothing happened. After a while he sat with me at lunch again.
"Hey!"
He smiles.
"Hi.."
I look up at him while he sits down across from me.
"How are you?"
He asks while still smiling.
I play along with it.
"Okay.. I guess"
I say.
"Thats good!"
He says. I can tell hes nervous. Just by the way hes talking kinda pitchy but trying to keep under control.
We didnt talk much after that. I just didnt understand why he was acting like this. After school i walk out the doors fast and suddenly i hear this voice calling my name.
"BAY!"
I look back.
Its Clay.
"BAY!"
He yells again and i dont stop speed walking. He catches up to me and touches my shoulder gently. I sweep it off and continue walking. He grabs my shoulder and turns me around.
"Bay.. Whats wrong? Are you okay?"
He looks at me with a worried face.
As if he didnt know. Hes killing me inside.
"No. I am absolutely NOT okay, Clay."
I put my head down.
He grips my waist a bit pulling me for a hug but i push away.
"Whats wrong Bay?"
He lifts my head up.
"Why."
I say with his hand gently on my jawline.
"Why what?"
He puts his hand on my arm.
"Why do you act like nothing happened?!"
I slightly yell.
"What are you talking about?"
He looks at me confused.
"The other day, you were fine then i asked if i could see your parents and you snapped!"
Im yelling and my face is red.
"Bay, I-"
I cut him off.
"Clay you hurt me!"
Tears fill my eyes and he looks down scratching his head.
I start walking away with my hands over my eyes. He grabs me by the shoulder again.
"Bay!"
I ignore him.
"Bay please listen!"
Hes yelling and im still walking.
Soon enough i see hes not following me anymore. Tears start to roll down my face, one after another. When i approach my bed. Like when it raining and your in the car watching the raindrops on your window fall. I dont understand why hes noticing me now.. Its the last week of school and hes just now noticing me. I will never understand boys.