Differences// g.d

Regrets

I look up at the ceiling and think about my dream. I ended up staring at blankness for a while now. I look at the time, "11:06 am" I have nothing planned for today but maybe I can walk around and think for a bit today. I sigh and get up and get dressed. I grab my keys and drive. Im just driving somewhere, maybe I'll go to the beach or something. I don't care as long as I think this through in peace. I ended up driving to the beach. I get out and start walking along the shore. It's a really nice day, and I wish Skylynn was with me to enjoy it too. I shove my hands in my pocket and look down at the ground just looking at the way the sand shines. I walked around for a bit and decide to go shopping for clothes from all my spare time. I drive back to my apartment, and then my thoughts start coming back again.

"Doing what is right, is never wrong."
Is all I hear in my head.

I feel wrong. I feel what I did is wrong. So I didn't do what's right..? And what I did what I thought was right, was wrong? What does that mean? That phrase, "Doing what is right, is never wrong." I know what it means but, what does it mean in my situation?

What's best for me and Skylynn in the end is the "right" thing. So, basically, I just did, "what was wrong" and I thought I did "what was right"...I have to fix this...

I speed up to my apartment building. I'm going to grab some stuff before I leave and try to find Ethan. I start to unlock the door and I see Ethan and he's not by himself. He's with her. He's on the couch, HE IS FUCKING HER?!

I run up to him and grab him from on top her and as hard as I can, I throw him across the floor. It was so unexpected to him because he didn't get to see who I was at first.

"WHAT THE HELL?" I hear him scream.

He finally gets up and wipes his lips and looks up to see who threw him and it's me, who the fuck else would it be. Before he could even comprehend what just happened I charge at him full speed and tackle him. I hear Skylynn wailing at us trying to make us stop but someone will have to physically get me because I'm not stopping. I start throwing punches and he tries to dodge them but it's too late. I'm way too quick and fired up its almost impossible for him to win this brawl.

"GRAYSON BAILEY!" I hear from Skylynn. That's weird that she said that but it's smart because it got my attention and I looked up at her.

"STOP! Please just use your words! We all need to talk." She says.

"Go to the car," I tell her without and explanation because I have a plan in my mind.

"I'm not leaving! You guys are going to kill each other!"

"I said go to the car," I try to say calmly and I feel Ethan punch me and almost knocked me out. I pick him up and slam him against the wall.

"GO TO THE CAR SKY" I say angrily because Ethan keeps punching me. She grabs her stuff and heads out the door.

Finally I have alone time to fuck him up.

I turn to face him and I look him straight in the eye in disgust.

"HOW COULD YOU DO THIS? I THOUGHT WE HAD A DEAL!" I scream at him and instantly feel like regretting what I just said.

"We did!" He tells me

"APPARENTLY NOT! IM DONE WITH THIS! IM DONE WITH YOU AND EVERYTHING YOU DO. DO YOU UNDERSTAND HOW BAD I WANT TO HURT YOU?! YOUR DISGUSTING!" I tell him.