mute. - Phan

four.

I feel like I overreacted to Dan's voice last month. It was just so amazing. It was such a great feeling, hearing his voice. That was the first time he spoke, now he speaks only to me. He told me he talks to his dog too now which is a huge step! I laughed at my thoughts, brushing my thighs as I stood up.

The truth is, I've already somehow fallen in love with Dan and I just don't know what I can do about it. Should I tell him? But if he rejects me, I'm just not ready for that. We've literally only known each other for like three months now. It's too early to show affection.

I walk to his front door and knock softly, hearing voices from the other side of the door.
A woman opened it , possibly Dan's mum.

"Hello. Who are you?" Her accent was rich and smooth. "I'm Dan's friend, Phil." I smiled at her as she smirked a bit. I can hear footsteps as someone ran down their wooden stairs, it was Dan. He stood beside his mum, moving her out of the way with his own body nicely. "Ooh. This is Phil, I see?" She was still smirking, making me a bit uncomfortable. I laughed awkwardly and Dan rolled his eyes, his cheeks fuming in red as he blushed.

Dan nodded and pointed upstairs, telling her we'd be in his room. She nodded back and looked at me with a wink and turned, walking to the kitchen where I presume she must've been there before I came?

I followed Dan upstairs, sneaking a few glances up at his bum as he led me. I know I probably shouldn't be looking at that but it was literally just as perfect as him.

We went into his room and he closed the door, sitting us on his bed. "What do you wanna do today, Lester?" He asked, digging through the movies. I just wanted to knock them out of his hand and kiss him. Or at least tell him I didn't want to watch movies, that I wanted to watch his eyes as they looked into mine. Or even just us laying out side looking at the clouds fade and watch the stars come out again , like we did last week. But all of those seemed too flirtatious to ask for. I sighed and shrugged, "eh. I'm down with anything." I got a feeling he got a hint that I didn't want to watch another movie as he laid down, setting them aside. "C'mere." He wavered his hand for me to lay next to him.

"Keep this door open, Dan." His mum opened the door before I could move and lay beside him. We both shot our eyes on the door. Dan nodded. It made me feel guilty and quite sad that he only spoke to me, but deep down, in my selfishness, it made me feel special. She walked away, leaving us alone again.

"Why don't you talk to them too?" I whispered, laying down beside him as he had his arm out under my head. "I dunno.. I just like you a lot I guess." He whispered back, we both laughed. I turned on my side, facing him. "I feel special." He smiled and nodded, moving his face closer to mine and whispering once more, "you are."

That played with my emotions a bit. We talked for an hour on random things, personal things though, whispering since the door was now open. We heard his mum cooking so it was fine.

"Have you ever been kissed?" I asked and he looked down in embarrassment. "No." He shook his head and sighed, looking at me, "I just want it to be someone kinda like... I dunno... Special to me?" I nodded, not realizing anything, seeing his face he was trying to make me realize that he had talked about this person earlier but I'm too slow to understand. Finally, I thought and smiled, "You said I was special.." I smirked as he blushed hard. "Oh my god, Phil!" He covered his face , his voice still low. I got my three fingers, index finger, middle finger, and my ring finer, kissing the tips of them lightly and setting them on his soft lips.

He smiled and bit his lip.
"There. You've been kissed." I slightly teased, noticing it worked due to his next words. "That doesn't count. It was cute. But it wasn't a kiss. No one's lips touched my lips." He complained a little.
"Hm.. Sorta!" We both laughed and he rolled his eyes. "Yeah. Whatever. I'll get my first kiss soon." I sighed to myself at the thought of him kissing someone else. If only I could just kiss him and he be totally okay with it. But I just wasn't quite sure if that's work.

"Dinner's ready, boys." His mum was on the stairs, I heard her walk back down. Dan sat up and stretched his arms out. "Let's go." I stood up, getting out of his bed and walking to the stairs, waiting for Dan. He caught up and I walked in front of him , faster than what he was just in case I went too slow. We sat at the table, right beside one another and his mum across from us. Our plates were ready. His mum seemed nice, but she wasn't ever around when I came. This was our first time meeting.

"So, Phil, are you gay too?" She asked in a serious tone. Dan shook his head and bit his lip, gesturing for her to stop. "Erm.. I'm bisexual." I looked at her then down at my food , quite embarrassed. I didn't want to tell Dan that way. It just would've made me so rude and dumb if I didn't respond. "Oh! So, that's when you like both guys and girls , right?" She asked and Dan placed his hand on mine that was set on my thigh as I tapped my foot. I was nervous now and he made it a bit better. "Yeah. Yeah. Exactly." I gave her a fake smile but she fell for it and nodded, eating her food again. He squeezed my hand and rubbed the top of it with his thumb.

"I'm sorry for her. She's just a bit over the moon, filled with curiosity all the time when I finally meet a new friend. Especially one that comes over often. Plus she came out a bit rude and I saw you getting nervous, I'm sorry. " Dan had closed his door and I was sat on his bed, he was sitting on the edge. "No, it's fine. I was gonna tell you, if it wasn't already too obvious, that's just not how I wanted to let it out." He nodded with a pout. "It's okay, now you know I'm gay." He frowned as my eyes widened. Did his mum say that?! What?! "Oh.. Yeah." I gave him a smile, hopefully not too creepy. I was so happy to know that.

I then told him that I was totally okay with it, of course. He asked me a lot of questions, funny ones like if I liked boys more than girls and what I looked for in guys. "I'm literally full homo most of the time." We both laughed. "Yeah, I'm always full homo." He gave me a small wink and put his hands in his pockets, uncomfortably. I sighed and went to hug him, putting my arms between his gaps and pulling him from the waist, bringing him closer to my chest.

We were now laying in his bed, cuddling in silence.

"Hey, can I tell you something?" I asked, intertwining our fingers as we looked into each other's eyes. I felt like it was the right time to spill the truth. My feelings. Even if we didn't end up together if he didn't like me back, I was just ready. I trust him a lot. "Of course, what's up?" Dan nearly whispered, afraid he's mum might hear him talking or something. "I like you." He giggled and smile widely, "I like you too, Phil." He messed my hair up, making me cringe a bit. Aren't I supposed to be treating him like he's adorable?! Why is he treating me this way? No.

"Erm.. No, no.. Like, I'm  kinda in love with you." I admitted, watching as he blushed lightly and bit his lip. "Really?" He blushed harder and I chuckled at his red cheeks. He's so cute. "Kinda." I winked, knowing he felt something for me. "Me too." He whispered, closing his eyes and resting his head on my chest.

"I should go, good night, babes." I was sat up, ready to leave. I didn't want to, but I knew Dan's mum didn't trust me much with him. "No, stay. Stay with me." Dan whined, pulling my wrist back. "Are you sure?" I asked and he nodded simply. "Positive." He closed his eyes once I laid back down. I pecked his nose, hoping it wasn't too far. But he grinned and scooted closer to me.

I wanted to kiss his soft lips so badly, they were calling out to me.

Mine twitched for his touch and I looked down, if only my stomach didn't feel so sick when he got this close to me I would've been kissing him right now. He looked impatient, like I was supposed to make the first move. But I freaking can't Howell!!!! I sighed and laid down, maybe another time. He frowned and nudged my arm. "What?" I looked at him as he began laying himself down beside me. "I thought you might kiss me for a second.." he trailed off and shrugged, "I was wrong?" his voice was soft and sweet. I sighed deeply, this time louder and he looked down.

I lifted his chin and he looked up at me with wide eyes and we got closer.. this is it.

IM SO SORRY FOR WAITING FOREVER OMG!! I HOPE WHOEVER EVEN READS THIS ENJOYS? ONCE AGAIN SO SORRY!