mute. - Phan

six.

"Phil? Oh my god! Phil! I'm sorry! Ge-.." Dan jumped off the couch and I immediately turned around. "Dan, what the hell!" I wanted to laugh, but I kept it in, knowing he was embarrassed. "Phil, I'm so sorry, I didn't know you were done eating yet and I'm sorry."

"Are you dressed yet?" I asked and I  could hear him sniffle. "Dan.. Don't cry." I turned around, not caring if he was dressed or not. "Phil, I'm not ready yet, please, look, I'm sorry." His voice cracked which broke my heart into pieces. "Dan, it's okay. I'm sure every teenage boy does that." I wiped his tears from his red cheeks and kissed his nose. "I'm just.. I didn't think you were finished eating and I needed it since I was horny from earlier." I raised my eyebrow at him and sighed, "Dan, didn't you think or know even that I might have needed something as well?" His eyes widened. "Oh.. I'm sorry, Phil, I didn't know it got to you as much as it did me." I smiled and shrugged. "I saw you doing it to me and I couldn't contain it anymore.." He smiled a little and sat down on the couch. I followed and sat beside him. "I can help you out you know.." I trailed off and he got a bit excited, obviously. "Uhm.. Are you sure?" He asked shyly and I nodded. "Oh yeah." I squeezed his thigh and gestured for him to go upstairs with me.

~

I laid with my eyes open, they were wide once I realized what just happened. I had sex. I lost my virginity to the one I love. To Dan Howell. And it was amazing.

"Best day ever." I breathed heavily and we both smiled. He nodded in agreement. "Damn Phil, I didn't know you had that in you." I laughed and smirked a little. "I may have more than that." He groaned and bit his lip. "I'm tired but let's see." He smirked at me and I shook my head. "Oh no, sir, not today." His mouth opened wide. "I gave you all I had, unless I learn something new, but come on Phil, pleaaaseee?" I rolled my eyes and nodded, "Alright, I suppose, you owe me. Learn something new and sexy by the end of this week." I winked and he giggled.

I got on top of him and bit my lip nervously.

"So, do you have any kinks that you may be hiding, Dan?" I asked simply and he just shrugged. "Call me daddy." We both laughed really hard and he shook his head, "oh please don't call me that." We laughed more. "Okay, for real though, no kink, no more sexy stuff for today." He thought hard about it, it was in his eyes. "Mm.. I honestly have no ide-.. Wait, what about just me and my boyfriend having some alone time and that's it, no kinks unless we actually have them?" I nodded. "There ya go baby boy!" He chuckled and paused, "Wait, Phil, do you have kinks?" I laughed and shook my head, "No."

"Okay, so?" He was impatient now. "Ughh! So impatient Dan!" I joked and got ready again.

I thought for a second on what we already did.. Okay.

I pulled him in for a kiss and we were already touching each other everywhere and I meant it when I saw everywhere. I slipped my tongue into his mouth and licked his top lip after, making him moan. I groped him and started grinding on him slowly to make him want more.

"I bet I could make you you know what without touching you." I smirked and he looked curious. "Hmm. Alright. If you do, I'll take you out to dinner this Friday night." I agreed and sat on his torso, pulling the blankets off of us, so it was literally just us together. He bit his lip when he saw me fully uncovered again.

I started touching myself and moaning as I did so.

"What?! Phil! Oh my god! Not fair! What the shit!" He moaned a little in the end as he watched me and grabbed the sheets, lifting his hips in the air along with me. I continued and went faster to make myself moan louder. I moaned his name really loud and felt his body slam underneath me against the mattress.

"Fuck. You." He panted and I did the same, laying beside him. "Damn." He let out and looked at him. "Told you." I laughed and he scoffed. "Cheater!"
"Hey! I am not. I didn't touch you at all." I smirked and he giggled. "Okay, dinner. You and me. Friday night at 8:00 pm after school." I bit my lip and cuddled into his side. "Where are we going? Not McDonalds, right?" I asked as a joke and he laughed. "Awe, you ruined the surprise!" We both laughed, I kissed his arm and smiled.

*• DAN POV •*

I'm definitely taking him to that one fancy ass restaurant that he's always wanted to go to. He deserves it. Especially after that.

I watched him smile and I did the same as I looked into his ocean eyes. It was perfect. He was perfect. Everything was perfect and in this moment, I knew everything's gonna be okay. I'm getting through it. No more mute Dan. I'm a human being and I deserve to have a voice. Phil told me that. He said my opinion matters as well. I love him. And from this day on, I need to make a promise to myself and I'll make it to Phil as well, that I will talk to everyone I know and meet.