Once Loved You.

10

Danie

"Penny for your thoughts?" I immediately turn my head to the owner of that voice.

Si Levin. Ang pinaka mahalagang lalake ngayon sa buhay ko. Daddy passed away 4 years ago. His heart was getting weaker as time goes by. Due to old age and sama ng loob dahil sa nangyayari sakin.

Akala ko kakayanin kong maging malakas pero hindi pala! Akala ko kaya kong gumising at bumangon knowing na wala na kong aasahan pa mula sakanya. No more good morning texts, wake up calls and I love you's. Akala ko kaya kong tanggapin kung anong nangyayari, yung sakit, yung pangungulila at yung pag mamahal ko para sakanya na hindi ko na pwedeng ipadama. Kasi tapos na.

Ayaw na niya. Ganon lang. Yung halos buong buhay mo wala kang ginawa kundi ang mahalin siya at ibigay lahat ng kaya mo.

Hindi ko pala kaya. I messed up. Gone was the goodie good Danielyn everyone knew. I isolated myself from people, even the closest I have, pinabayaan ko ang sarili ko, I tried going out to get drunk, cried my eyes out every time I think of the years we spent together, ignoring everyone na konektado sakanya and even shut my parents out. I became someone I don't know.

A stranger.

Lahat sila nagagalit na sakin dahil hindi nila ako maintindihan. Hindi nila maintindihan yung sakit na pinag dadaanan ko. Mommy was kind enough to slap me back to reality one day then after that I lost the first man who loves me.. My dad.

It was a life changing moment. I instantly returned to myself but carried some few things I learned and I will help me to be stronger. I'm came back pero sinigurado kong wala ng makakapasok muli sa puso ko. Wala ng makaka sakit sakin muli.

Wala ng wawasak sa puso ko dahil wala naman ng wawasakin. Hindi ko naman kinuha pabalik ang puso kong binigay ko sakanya, na nagawa niyang itapon nang parang basura.

I smiled. "Nothing hon. I just thought I saw someone I know at the lobby awhile ago." Pero impossible.

"Really now? Anyway, next month na ang deadline nung advertisement for Monde. Pipili tayo sa mga teams kung sino ang mas maganda at papatok sa masa. Hindi ko kasi maibigay sa team ni Sandra. Her best staff walked out on her. Kaya baka hindi niya kayanin ngayon. Big client pa naman ang Monde." Oh! Bakit naman kaya nag resign yun? Kawawa naman si Sandra. Lately mas madalas manalo ang ideas nila. Wait..

"Eh Di ba hon, sila yung nakuha natin last month?" Ang ganda ng commercial nung napalabas na sa TV. Hindi nga halata na minadali yun dahil nag ka Problema sila. Siguro yun nga ang pag reresign nun.

"Yup. Sandra said na may tumulong sakanila. It was not Art's idea anymore.. And she also mentioned to me na pinag apply niya yung tao dito. She wants that person on her team. She said may potential, may puso at gwapo." He rolled his eyes after saying gwapo. Tsk! Ayaw niya talagang nag cocompliment ng ibang lalake. Arg! Man ego.

"Si Sands talaga! Basta gwapo, umaamo! Hay naku! Yan talagang pinsan mo. Feel ko, bet niya yan kaya pinag apply niya." Napa iling na lang ako. Oh my Sandra! May ipapakilala na naman siya sakin.

Now I remember.. May nabanggit nga siya sakin na bet na bet niya daw. The guy who butt in to their meeting and shared his most brilliant idea! According to her.

"Do you remember now kung sino yung iniisip mo kanina?" I sat up straight nung nag sink in sakin yung tanong niya. Iniisip ko? Kanina? Si....

"Huh?" I tried not to sound so confused. I look at him and as if he's reading me. Umiwas ako ng tingin. He can easily read me.. That's how much he knows me.

"I...uh.. I don't know." I shook my head. Shrugging that image out of my head. "I just thought I saw a familiar face back in the lobby but then I saw you and I already forgot kung sino ba yung dapat kong titignan." It's true, nakita ko siya kaagad right after he called my name. Kaya sakanya na na-focus ang attention ko.

"Bolera! You don't have to say that. I'm madly smitten by you. I love you honey." He smiled and stood up. Lumuhod siya sa harap ko dahil nandito ako sa sofa while he's at his table kanina. Now we're face to face, he held my cheeks tapos ay hinalikan niya ko sa labi. I closed my eyes and savour the moment..

Mahal ko siya.

Mahal ko si Levin.

He knows that I don't have a heart to give to him anymore so he gave me his heart instead.

He gave me his heart to let me feel his love for me.

He's my superhero. Now.

He saved me.

He's my now and tomorrow.

I had finally moved on.