Courage to love

Only if // Prologue

"Well, sometimes I've believed as many as 6 impossible things before breakfast."

If I have the courage to tell you face to face that I had a crush on you for 8 years, what would your reaction be?

As optimistic as I will sound, I actually did have a positive expectation. Did. However the courage to do it, is another thing. I guess courage may be inside of every one of us, but to dig it out from beneath and deliver it on a silver platter is not all that easy. You must be wondering the reason why I do not have the courage to do it, despite having a good feeling about it. Well, simply because life is not always smooth flowing; we walk on roads that can be made out of both rocks and glass. Rocky roads might be challenging to trail upon, but one is certain that it will be able to hold on. Glass path may seem elegant and facile however when it breaks, the million pieces cut and hurt more, leaving your bare feet filled with ugly scars and wounds that does not heal with time.

"Tis' the voice of the lobster; I heard him declare, 'you have baked me too brown, I must sugar my hair.' As a duck with its eyelids, so he with his nose. Trims his belt and buttons, and turns out his toes."

People are never afraid to say what they want or things on their mind, they are only afraid of the responses. Similarly, I am no different, I wish to have the many things of wonder the world possesses and yet, wish not to be taken back in any way. I understand that all choices leads to consequences and life is about taking the risks. But, for the many tiny million pieces of glass that will shatter onto my fragile beating muscle, I just could not.

But this is not about how I did not, this is about what if I did. If I did, I would have done it 4 years ago. The time when you and me distanced, the time where my nights prolonged to 13 hours with the thoughts of you. The time when I had the courage to do it.

If only I did.