P.s.p.s The italics wordings placed in the middle is in a text message kind of format.
Life is all about taking risks. I read a quote somewhere before that wrote "If you ain't falling, you ain't living". But i guess as long as we take the risk, be it to fail or succeed, it is a great lesson in life.
Xx day of the xx month of year 2010, I texted you out of the blue:
Avery: Hey
Can we talk?
In that moment, it just felt like despite knowing I am afraid of heights, I purposely balanced myself at the edge of the cliff and braced myself for I looked down. It was that scary; the heights and the thoughts of falling, skydiving into the ground of my doom. The best part was, I texted him with my heart in my mouth, without even knowing if he would reply me. Someone whom he probably had already forgotten.
With every second that passed, my fidgeting increased. From taking up my phone every 2 seconds to check to rolling on my bed to walking about aimlessly in my room like a demented patient that had forgotten something. 3 minutes passed, and suddenly my phone lit up with a musical ring. MESSAGE!
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SERIOUSLY?! Just when I thought my heart was just about to explode upon his reply, it was not, I repeated NOT, his reply. My anxiety level flew up to the heavens, said hello to everybody whom was up there and drop back to reality.
I threw my phone onto the bed, claiming that I gave up on life. Just then, it lit up again. "Oh God, please be him this time..."
Him: Sup?
OH MY GOD. HE REPLIED! Play it cool Avery, play it cool.
Avery: I actually do have something to tell you and it is gonna be hard over the phone.
-No reply -
Please dun feel awkward about it! >< Dun feel weird too...
Him: haha, no luh. What is it about?
Avery: umm...
My complicated life? *inserts smiling emoji with sweat drop*
Him: umm haha, okay? But I have school though
Avery: Haha, no wirries, we can find a day if you're okay with the idea.
Worries* psps typo
Him: No wirries too, hahahhaaha. I'll update you soon.
Avery: kkays.
Honestly, despite everything he said, I was so sure he wasn't going to text or inform me at all. One day passed, then the second day passed and here comes the third day without any news from him.
My faith and expectations of him replying me decreased as each day passed. But on a gloomy Saturday, I received a message from someone I no longer expected.
Him: hey. Sorry for the long wait. R u free tmr?
SQUEAL! HE TEXTED ME.
Avery: oh, hmm. Whats up?
Him: the ceiling. No luh, I tot u wanted talk?
Avery: oh! Psps I forgotten. Haha yea.
Him: k, cya tmr then. *smiling face emoji*
Avery: see you~
I held my phone as I rolled on my bed to and fro a few times, then I stopped, how am I going to break the news to him tomorrow? How am I even supposed to open my mouth and not feel like an idiot upon the things that I've spoken? Damn.
Should I wear contacts? Should I wear make-up? I don't think he has seen me in make-up, what if he don't like it? Gosh I was freaking out. What should I wear? What are we going to do? Oh damn, where are we even meeting? ARGHHHHHHHHHH!
The courage that I had upon approaching him, does not applies to the night before. I was excited, nervous, anxious, and fearful and scared all at the same time. Overthinking at this point is already considered as a comfort method. 何をすべきか (what do i do)?!
Hahaha this is the end of Chapter 1, hope you like it. Feel free to comment! -Mklfpy
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Courage to love
РомантикаThe courage that I never had, but what if things was different then? Would the outcome be different? A story about a girl who dreams of having the courage to confess to the guy she loves for as long as she could remember. What would his response be?
