Loved You First

#5 - Feelings

And.....He kissed me.

I couldn't push him away. I didn't wanna push him away. So I just kissed him back. The kiss gave me tingles in my body. Our lips detached from each other.

"An, I'm sorry I didn't mean to" Zayn started.

The rain stopped.

"Zayn, I should have been honest with you" I started but I stopped.

"What do you mean?" I looked down but he lifted my chins up so our eyes would meet.

"Zayn I like you too. And I thought that you wouldn't feel the same way, but I guess you do. Zayn I've liked you ever since we both met. When we were little kids. And I knew then that you were the one for me" I gazed up into his eyes. "I never wanted to tell you, cuz it might ruin our friendship"

"An, I love you that's all. I always have and I always will" Zayn pulled me into a hug. A tight hug. I pushed him back.

"Zayn I have to go" I said. As I was about to run off until he grabbed my wrist and pulled me back.

"An, please be mine?" he asked me. What should I say?

"Zayn I can't. And yes I do love you, but I hope you understand. I just can't" I took off running before he could stop me again.

I ran all the way to me and Emz flat. I got home soaking wet. I saw Em sitting on the couch watching a movie.

"Angie, what happen to you? Why are you all wet?" Em asked as she got me a towel.

"Nothing, I walked home and the rain just came pouring down. I need to go dry off" I ran to my room and went straight to the bathroom.

I took a quick shower and slipped on into my pajamas. I was wearing my purple sweatpants and my batman tank top. I brushed my hair and put it in a messy bun. I then went back to the lounge room to see Em still watching a movie. I sat next to her and leaned my head on her shoulder.

"So Angie, how did your date go?" Em asked.

"It went well" I didn't wanna tell her about what happened. Even though I tell Emely everything but I just couldn't seem to tell her this one.

"That's good" Em said as my phone beeped.

I looked at it to see who it was. It was just Zayn. Should I answer or should I not? My thoughts were constantly playing around in my head. I decided to answer.

+From Zayn:

Hey An, I'm sorry. I think I acted like a jerk today. I didn't mean to just push myself to you. I just really like you and now I know how you feel about me. But An please give me a chance.

How am I gonna reply to this? Think An, Think.

+To Zayn:

Zayn, No I had a good time with you. But Zayn please understand why. The days will come but I don't think I can do this now. Well not today. Zayn I love you. Bye.

It was hard to just let him go. And I know for myself that I wanted him too like he wanted me. But I have my reasons why. And I hope he understands why I'm doing this and why I'm rejecting him.

-- Zayn's P.o.V --

+From An:

Zayn, No I had a good time with you. But Zayn please understand why. The days will come but I don't think I can do this now. Well not today. Zayn I love you. Bye.

What does she mean She can't do it? And that the day will come? I need some answers. I need to know why.

I really like her. I've never felt like this before for just any girl. She was something else. She was special. But if she did love me why would she say no?

This is confusing. Well I have an xfactor audition to be focusing on. I'll find out and get some answers after the audition.

** 2 days pass **

I haven't talked to or seen An since our date. And tomorrow was my audition. Should I invite her or should I not? I think I'll just invite another friend. Maybe Emely? I haven't gotten to know her but she seems really nice. Maybe I should invite her to watch my audition instead.

I pulled out my phone and texted her.

+To Emely:

Hey Emely, I have an audition tomorrow for the xfactor. Maybe You wanna come and watch me? Its gonna be mid day and its gonna be at The London Premier College near Commercial Road. Hope you can make it.

I sent the text and waited for her to text back.

+From Emely:

Hey Zayn, yes I'd love to go and watch you. And you can count on me I'll be there on time :)

Tomorrow is gonna be a big day. And I really wish An would be their to support me like she normally would :/.

-- Emely's P.o.V --

Finally I get to hang out with Zayn. I haven't seen him since we bumped into each other at the grocery store.

"Hey Em, what do you think about this dress?" Angie asked snapping me out of my thoughts.

"Uhm yeah, that looks nice. You should get it and I'll get..... this" I said holding up a blue flowered mid thigh dress. She nodded.

Me and Angie were at the Mall hanging out. We thought that we needed some girl time. We were just buying random outfits and stuff. I being that shopaholic bought twice as much stuff as Angie did. Angie only bought a little stuff but I made her buy skirts, and dresses, and more. Angie would usually dress like a dude but I force her to be a bit girly. But sometimes she refuses but oh well.

We just paid and got the last of what we were shopping for. And we headed home.

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A/N:

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