Into the Dark: The Story of Selena Snape

Chapter 9

Selena's POV

I had been laying out by the lake at Hogwarts for a good two hours now, just thinking. Thinking about life, thinking about my past, my present, and most of all my future. If I did succeed in this mission, where would I end up? To the Dark Lord, I was going to be a very powerful Death Eater soon, outshine my father when he was one. I would practically be second in command, besides Bella, who seemed to claim that spot at the moment. She was very powerful herself, but Voldemort said I was almost more powerful. He made me feel really good about myself. He seemed to almost be like a second father to me at this point. He had taught me so many things about life that I never knew before. He once told me that there is no good and evil, there is only power. He would always remind me of this saying whenever I felt bad about the dark things I would be training for.

I had the killing curse down to a tee now. I was very ready to complete this mission. I still felt a little bad about it at times though. Dumbledore had always been really good to me my whole life. When I met him for the first time in my first year at Hogwarts, he welcomed me with open arms. He always said how much alike I was to my father. The day I was sorted into Slytherin he smiled at me in an excited way, but sometimes I could see worry in his eyes. Like he knew that this was going to happen to me someday. My father always felt the same way. I could understand now why they didn't want me to be a Death Eater. Killing and torturing innocent people was a big part of the job. But I suddenly just didn't care about it anymore. The Dark Lord told me killing him was for the best so we could get to Potter easily. This was the only reason that motivated me to do this. I hated Potter, for all the reasons my father hated him. I hated that he was bullied by his dad when they were young. He had no right. Potter was just like his father too. Lazy, arrogant, always strutting the castle like he was a big shot. I couldn't take it anymore!

A surge of anger and hatred rushed through my body, boiling my blood to the point I felt like I was going to burst. I had to get this done sooner than the Dark Lord expected. I wanted to finally silence the Great Harry Potter for myself. Forget just killing Dumbledore. Of course I would kill him first, but once I did I wanted to go after him too. He didn't deserve to live. I could tell by the way my father looks at him all the time that he feels the same way. I wasn't just going to do this for Voldemort anymore. This one was going to be for my father too. I loved him too much for him to keep hurting like this all the time. It had to be done. My thoughts were then interrupted my two hands wrapping around my waist. I first jumped at this person's touch, but then looked up to see it was Draco.

"Hey there pretty girl, how's it going?" he asked, kissing my cheek lightly and sitting down on the ground with me.

"It's going," I smiled at him, letting the current anger go down for awhile.

"What are you thinking about?" He could tell something was on my mind by how jumpy I was when he got here.

"Just this mission, I just want to get it over with. I really like Dumbledore, but if it's the only way to get to Potter then so be it. And when I kill him, I'm going straight after Potter myself," I said sternly. Draco just looked at me with concern.

"I don't know if the Dark Lord would really want you to be the one to kill Potter too though Selena, you see him and Potter have some history together, and he really says he has to be the one to kill him," he said honestly. I knew Voldemort had a beef for Potter and all, but I felt like if I were the one to do it, he would think I was the most powerful witch to walk the planet, next to him of course.

"Yeah well I think if I gave it a shot he would really respect me..that's all," I said coldly. I really wanted him to know how serious I was about this.

"Okay, but just focus on your main goal for now. Get that done and then you can decide what you want to do about Potter afterwards." I agreed with him on this one. I had to get the first job intended for me before anything else. I wouldn't want to get in trouble for messing it up. I then jumped to my feet with a brilliant idea. If I attempted to kill Dumbledore this week, I could easily get to Potter soon enough. I told Draco about this and he agreed to help me.