Treble Clef

Part 3 Pain and Suffering

I was on top of the world, but I had no idea that this make believe world that was at my feet was about to crumble and fall. Emily placed her hand on my face and with no build up, no warning she said…”My family and I are moving to California.” All of the breath in my body left without warning. I felt sick to my stomach, but most of all I was speechless. The days following were extremely tough, my bestfriend and the love of my life were leaving. Furthermore this meant the dismantling of the band and our shot at fame blew away in the wind.

                On the day of her leaving, me and Emily sat down and had a serious talk. “So what happens to us?” I ask. “Max I love you, you know that. I don’t want distance to tear us apart. I’m willing to stay with you if you are.” She said. I grabbed her face, looked her in the eyes and said “Baby no matter how far you go, I will always be yours” she smiled and jokingly said “awww ‘till death do us part?” I chuckled “yes ‘till death do us part.” We kissed and she got in the car, and just like that she was gone.

                We talked every day for  2 weeks, then we became too busy for each other. I never felt like we were growing out of love, just growing apart. But I never would have guessed what would happen next. On Christmas eve, I received a text from Benji, he told me that he and Emily had gone to party where she had been drinking heavily, he then sent me a picture of what the of her drinking was. I almost puked at the sight of my beloved girlfriend in bed, naked with another guy kissing him the same way she kissed me. I felt like the climax of one our rock songs. Emotions flaring left and right just as the crowd moves when they have been pumped up. I called her and let every single negative word I could think of to describe her. It felt like I had been yelling at her for hours, I could hear her weeping. Any other girlfriend I’d just never talk to again. But I had given this girl my heart, and she stepped on it. Every day people ask me how can I be so cold, so heartless. It’s because my heart was destroyed, unable to be pieced back together.

                The entire time I yelled at her, I never said the words “we’re through” I guess deep down I knew I wanted to forgive her sometime. For 3 days she called and I didn’t answer. On the 4th day I knew I would forgive her, but I wanted to make her sweat, my heart was so set on revenge I wanted her to beg for my forgiveness. Cold I know, but I knew nothing about love back then. I answered the phone and she was crying. She told me that if I forgave her, she would never take another drink again in her life. This was my opportunity to see if she really wanted me. I told her that I couldn’t forgive her. I wanted to wait ‘till the next day to see if she would beg again, and then I would forgive her.

                The next morning I got a phone call. But it wasn’t exactly the call I was expecting….When I answered the phone, it was Emily’s dad. He was crying so much I couldn’t even understand him. Apparently because I had rejected her offer Emily took her brother to a party ad drank heavily, she was 17 and her brother was only 14 so she had to drive them home. But they never made it home. Emily was so intoxicated that drove off the road and the car went flying off a cliff. Both Emily and Benji died.

                No words can express the pain I felt, therefore I will not write that in these journals. However, Emily and Benji were at a party with a record company they were about to be signed to. They were going to be famous, yet a few bad decisions and their love for the treble clef, sent them flying off of their trouble cliff.I told Emily we’d be together ‘till death did us part. And indeed we were together…’till death did us part…

                I had lost 2 friends, seems like a good time to give up right? No,I had a love for the treble clef, just like Emily and Benji had. I had to push on.

~End of part 3~

-----This story is far from over. Part 4 coming soon