Don't You Get It? ✅

What I Never Told You

one.) the once crutch

if you ever asked what i never told you,

what would i exactly say,

i guess how much i really loved you?

how much of my care when unnoticed,

darling, where would your life be without me,

i'd admit it probably be the same,

the spinning, clarity you have now,

correct?

goodbye but good day,

is that what you wanted from me,

i never told you that at first i never wanted you,

i guess i still don't

two.) the once fall-back plan

i knew i couldn't forget you,

so full of yourself,

i tried so hard to protect,

i guess as your mother didn't,

but some people try and try,

where did my trying get me,

the gutter,

it is actually kind of warm here.

oops.

three.) the once and only

maybe it would easy if we necer stumbled upon each other,

was the ache worth it after i pressed log out,

never,

there will be a place in my heart for you,

did you know i still think about you,

in the deep dark of the night,

i still cry for you.

you are a girl i'll never forget,

but i cannot will myself to try to speak to you again,

would you reject me as each of these others did?

a coward like me will never know..

four.) the once beauty

you always had these air to you,

so mysterious,

you were an oddity,

an unsalvageable oddity.

now you're gone.

gone.

gone.

five.) the once forgotten

what an artist,

your hands and pencil draw such art,

but your smile,

eyes,

charm,

laugh,

care,

and boyfriend,

is your art.

ugh.

you are so beautiful i cannot have you.

six.) the once me

i guess what i never told you was,

you do suck,

the old me,

faking,

and,

faking,

was death always your first option?

i was a loser.