When they meet(boyxboy)

Chapter 20

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Noah's POV

Once Austin left for his room I couldn't believe that he had said all that to me. Today is the second time I've cried. I keep doing mistakes over and over again. How could I get him to forgive me now? I just sat on the floor and cried until someone tapped my shoulder. I looked up and saw my mum.

"I am sorry son. I didn't know they were related to Austin and all that had happened." She said with a sad face.

"Mom its okay. Don't worry! He just needs some alone time I think." I said as my mum cell began to ring. She attended the call then came back and said "It was your dad. He said to come to the office for some urgent work and I don't think I will be back soon. Do you want me to take the twins to your grandma's place?"

"I guess that would be right. Mum can you inform Nathaniel that happened to Austin but tell him to visit him later?"

"Sure son! I'll do it and don't worry everything will be fine." She said with a reassuring smile.

"Thank you mum. You are the best." I gave her a peck on the forehead and she left. I went into the living room and saw the twins sitting still as earlier.

"Zan, Zach my mum will take you to my grandma's place because Austin is not feeling well. Okay?"

"What happened?" Zan asked and I could see tears forming in his eyes.

I sat on my knees in front of them and took their tiny little hands in mine and said "Look your brother is sick but I promise he will be better later. Be good boys and go with my mum. Tomorrow you won't go to school okay? In the evening I will buy you both ice creams. Now be good boys and do as I say. Okay?"

They both just nod their head while looking at me. "I love you both. Just trust me. I'll fix everything." I said while giving them a big hug which they gladly returned. Once my mum packed a bag for them and came back I accompanied them to the car. I put on their seatbelts and they drove away.

I got in, locked the door and we at to take all look at Austin. I opened his door slowly and saw that he was sleeping and his pillow was wet with tears. I put the blankets on him, gave him a kiss on the forehead then went into my room.

*SELF-HARM*

Finally I am alone. Now I don't have to put on an act for making people that I am happy when in fact I am sad. I thought as I got in the bathroom. I opened the water and stripped out of all my clothes. I didn't close the door as nobody was home and Austin was sleeping. I searched in the cabinet for something that I haven't used since I was 17. My blade.Once I found my grey blade I stood naked under the cold water.

I used to cut for a long time but nobody knew. I started cutting when the boys at school started bullying me for being bisexual. But it stopped when I first got my first boyfriend at the age of 16 and he was 17. He was always there for me. His name is Chris and he was gay. We had been together for 5 month. He had always respected me and didn't force me for anything. On his birthday I wanted him to make me his. That was a big step for me but I realised that he is very honest with me and our relationship was successful so I won't have any regret later.

But sadly he was going to spend his birthday with his parents. Though I wanted to be with him I didn't stay. His parents were rarely home so I let him. He told me that they were going out for dinner and have some family time. I decided to make a surprise for him. As he trusted me, he gave me a key of his house.

At nine o'clock I decided to go. I got ready and went at his place. I walked there as his place was like 15 minutes away from mine. When I got there I saw that his parents car was present and the door wasn't locked. I rang the doorbell and was shocked to find his mum. She let me in and I went into his Chris's room. I opened the door with less noise that I could make just to met with the most horrible thing.

There stood Chris with my bully naked snogging while their hands roamed freely over each others body. I chocked out a sob and that got theirs attentions. He got away from the boy and I asked

"Why did you do that to me?"

"I was tired waiting for you."

"I trusted you and was going to give you my virginity today."

"I am sorry but I couldn't wait. A guy has some desire."

"B-but"

"We're finished." And that line left me broken.

I took the blade and slide it across my arm:

•For not being a good boyfriend.

•For kissing my that bitch

•For hurting Austin twice

Blood started to ooze from the cuts. I watch as they mix with the water. I was feeling pain. I started shivering due to the cold water. I was crying. I felt weak and defeated. I probably deserved that.

"I LOVE YOU AUSTIN AND I PROMISE I WILL DO ANYTHING FOR US TO BE BACK TOGETHER." I yelled taking out all the emotions I could while I started sliding the blade deeper on my skin for more pain just to be stopped by a hand.

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